So I've been on a plateau for the last 2 months and it's very frustrating. I've tried upping my calories, lowering my calories, upping exercise, lessening exercise, and nothing seems to be helping and i'm getting to the point where I just want to give up.
When I look in the mirror I see myself exactly the same as I did 60 lbs ago, and it's frustrating and hurtful and I HATE having such a horrible body image. I feel so gross and fat.
The weight on my stomach seems to be sticking (hooray for apple shapes!). I know that I've lost weight there, because it's all squishy and saggy and no matter if I wear pants that are tight or loose, it always cuts my stomach in half and no matter what i look like I have a spare tire. It sucks and I feel like I'll never be able to look good in clothes.
I don't know... I guess I'm just looking for support and encouragement. I see my boyfriend in 3 weeks after not seeing him for 3 months (he's been in bootcamp) and I feel like such a failure for only losing 10 lbs since he's last seen me. I've struggled with bulimia since I was 14 (I'm now 19) and I thought I recovered, but it's times like these that make me want to go back to my old ways.