Thanks Puncezilla. Good for you for recommitting. I too have fallen off the dieting bandwagon, but as of this instant I am right back on. You're right of course - I feel absolutely lousy when I cheat - physically as well as emotionally. I called one of my BF's (long distance) and cried on her shoulder about some of the things in life I'm dealing with right now. I pourd out my heart about how I was self medicating with food, and how I felt so guilty about it. She also has a slight weight problem (about 30 lbs extra) but she said something to smarten me up. Eating does not make me guilty. I am not sinning, or condemning my soul to **** if I cheat. All I am doing is hurting my body. No major crimes are being committed against society. I need to accept my relationship with food, not fight against it. I will always need to eat, for the rest of my life in order to survive.- my only choice in the matter is what I chose to eat and how I let it affect me. A situaton cannot affect me. How I react to the situation is what affects the outcome. I need to make a healthy friendship with food. Feeling guilty is what leads to downward spirals and guilt feeds upon itself.
So after all that preaching, I am recommitting to myself and my program, and to my healthy relationship with the biggest lover in my life (beside dh of course) - food. Keeping my
- me putting my foot down on my unhealthy attitudes.