Oh my gosh, I'm the exact same way!! I'm totally happy with myself when I look in the mirror, but then in pictures I'm like, "WHAT HAPPENED?!"
That's why I've been so content with myself. The fact that I'm fat doesn't really bother me, and that makes it really hard to stick to exercising and eating right sometimes. It's been holding me back too!!
But my main concern is my health, which is why I'm working on losing some weight now. I just want to be healthy.