I used to come here quite often and get support for losing weight. It worked. I lost some weight. Then I decided to quit smoking. I was a two pack a day smoker for the last 10 years. Well it all went to **** from there. I ate and ate and ate... I put on 40 lbs in the last 4 months. None of my clothes fit me anymore. They are all so tight that i look like a joke and I can barely breathe. I run around the house in my nightgown all day cause it's one of the only thing that still fits me. Right now I weigh 340lbs. My knees hurt, my joints hurt. I feel so fat and so smushed together. It's so uncomfortable to be this big. The only good thing is that I still do NOT smoke but sometimes I wonder if it was worth it.
Now I am a compulsive eater. I think I always was but cigarettes helped me to keep it a little under control. I eat so much its ridiculous. I bought a book about compulsive overeating and I am starting to get into it. I am hoping that it will help. I feel like my life is so out of control right now and i can't stand it.
Everyone says....Just eat less! I wish it were that easy. I am back and in need of all the support that I can get.
I dont where to start but I think that finishing that book is the first thing. Any words of advice?
Rachel