Hi.
I didn't know where else to vent, because I don't want any of my friends finding out about this. But here it goes... All of my life I have "always" been able to get what I wanted. I think that is one of the reasons I have never bothered to lose weight. Being overweight had never bothered me before. I have the best friends ever, I hang out at the hot clubs, I get with the hot guys and I have the most gorgeous friends. A little while ago I started liking a guy who never really paid much attention to me. We are friends and everything but I never knew why he didn't flirt with me. We clicked.. I really thought we were perfect for each other. Just recently another girl came into the picture and started liking him. To make this short, I found out he won't date her because she is overweight.
Here is my dilemma. I want to lose weight, because I want revenge. I want him to "hate" himself for not wanting me. The real dilemma is that if it wasn't for this reason, I wouldn't be worried about losing weight.
I am afraid this whole plan will backfire on me, and karma will slap me. I know I will never like him again, but I am afraid that I might lose weight and only gain it all back once I get over wanting to get him back. And once I lose weight I know I will enjoy it.. I'm so afraid.
Any feedback would MUCH appreciated.