Hi ladies,
I could really use some help.
I’m at a point where I know that I’m not losing weight because I feel overwhelmed. It’s started to enter into the “too hard to do” category. This feeling was triggered as I am now (as of April) in a position where my weight affects my professional life (as in, I’m no longer up for promotion and may be put into a less favored category because I need to lose weight).
I knew this was coming, but I’d had knee surgery in November and I didn’t realize how difficult it would be to exercise after the surgery. I’m not even allowed to walk for 20 minutes. I had been exercising on the elliptical and swimming, but it didn’t impact my weight despite a calorie controlled intake (1400-1600 cals daily). It just isn’t enough for a 40-something gal to lose weight on. As a single working mom, I try to spend a lot of time with my 2 year old, but I started using that as an excuse instead of taking my daughter with me when I walk or do more elliptical at home. I even have Yoga for Kids DVDs that would include her.
Since I can only take one day at a time, I’m trying to just be happy that I exercised, planned healthy meals, and have eaten moderately well today. I try to do that each day. But I’m really dragging butt.
I feel very disappointed in myself and am just plain struggling to not give up each day. I’ve caught myself saying, “What the heck, Dunkin Doughnuts has a drive through” and other such non-sense. Most of the time I found something else to do, but I’ve slipped sometimes too, last night I ate a Wendy’s hamburger for dinner (no fries, like that matters). I was skinny as kid and up through my 20s. When PCOS hit, it hit hard and I gained 30 lbs in a year while I was exercising and dieting like a fiend. I used to eat anything I wanted and not gain weight. I know that has changed, but through the years I’ve not given up the struggle. I’ve wanted to, but not given up. In the past, I’ve always “gone it alone” and really never had anyone to support me in my efforts to lose weight.
Could y’all please help me to get out of this frustrating state of mind?
Thanks to all/anyone – who has the time to offer some support.
ShyCammie