My SIL helped me realise that I am a self-saboteur. When I'm on form (dieting and exercising) I can loose between 2-4lbs a week. My plan is when I get down to my goal weight DH and I can start trying for third child. At this rate I could be there in as few as 6 weeks. The problem is that my youngest just turned 4 months. I'm not mentally ready to start trying again, which is where the sabotage comes in. I only worked out once last week, and once this week. I haven't really been watching what I eat. I do realise part of it could be fatigue from being a single mom right now. DH should be back with in the next 2-3 months. I don't know what to do to give myself the motivation again. I know I am sooo close, but yet still so far away.
Oh yeah, and I'm gaining weight again. 2 weeks ago I was down to 162, I'm back up to 165 again.