My name is Nikki and I am sixteen years old.
Many doctors say it is too young an age to start dieting and many of you may think that that is too early an age to start losing weight. But i feel i have to do something about my issues right now.
I'm guessing that my rapid weight gain started just before i turned twelve when my dad, at the age of 40, suffered from a heart attack and passed away. He was fit and healthy, not over weight, normal blood pressure and low cholesetrol. The doctors didn't know why he had a heart attack as nothing pointed straight to it happening. I felt that at that time it was ok for me to binge drink and smoke because it turns out i would die of a heart attack from nothing anyway! I began to gain a stone every year and go up a cup size every 6 months until evetually, at 15 and a half, i couldn't handle being my self anymore.
Because of my father's death and other loses i have had in my family since, (my great aunt who was the closest thing i had to a grandmother passed away in the spring of last year and my dog was put down in the late summer) I've come to realise i am a comfort eater, as are the rest of my family, and want to do something about it.
My motivation originally starting last year, my new year's resolution was to eat healthy and get fit, but after some stupid teenage girl incidents, i became pretty depressed and gave up. Ever since then i haven't been able to get back into the flow of things, except for the period of time just before i returned to school. After putting on a stone from drinking and partying, i lost it and more and managed to maintain that weight for 2 months. Then christmas came along and everything went downhill again.
So this time round i've decided to do things properly. I feel i can't console in my friends because none of them understand what i have/am going through and was hoping that somewhere out there someone might be able to help give me a little nudge of encouragement along the way.