Thanks girls. I definitely like the idea of the clothes thing, but whenever I try that I can't help but get on the scale! LOL. I'm not way overweight, but I don't like the flabby look I have in clothes. In high school I weighed around 125-130, and whenever I went shopping, I wouldn't even need to try on clothes because I knew they'd fit just by looking at them. I usually wore a size medium top (I have big boobs) and a size 7 jean EVERY store I went to...it was SO NICE! I really liked my body then. Now, I HAVE to try on clothes, and usually they don't fit. I can't really shop in the junior department anymore because I don't fit into those clothes like I used to....I'm only 21..I don't want to stop shopping there just yet because I like those clothes a lot better.
I know the motivation has to come from within. It's just so hard at times. I WANT to look good, I WANT to have a normal BMI, and I WANT to be able to buy clothes without wondering whether or not they'll make me look fat. Most of my fat is around my stomach/love handle area, so shirts rarely fit me right and look good. I want these things so badly, yet I keep sabotaging myself. And I don't get it! I don't think I've ever stayed with healthy eating and exercise for more than a month.
I'm really losing hope....is this where I'm going to be the rest of my life??