I've been binging for 11 months, and just recently got onto dieting again...but as someone stated earlier on this site, you can't just instantly kill the binge monster. I feel like binging when I am moderately hungry and am feeling bad.
I have been feeling really bad about what happened in school. I walked into class and one girl said, "Ew..."
It doesn't help that they are all seemingingly perfect and skinny.
I keep remembering it, and I agree with her. But it makes me feel depressed.
I feel like I'll never be able to be as good or better than them. And I fail on my diet from my emotions. I felt like binging to make myself feel better...but I kept telling myself that if I want to be better I can't overeat and make myself feel okay...then have to go back to school even heavier cause I ate too much. The only way is to stick to my diet.
But I was very upset...so I was looking for a 100 calorie snack and found a whole container of strawberries. I measured a cup and put some sweet n' low on it and went to my room before I did anything else. I sat down and tried to savor them to feel better.
I think it worked. I feel proud for beating the binge...but I fear it consistently. I don't know...I just get low and have low confidence in myself.
I don't know what I'm asking, I'm just telling how I beat it. At least, so far...
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