I am disappointed with myself

  • I was overweight all of my life. My family has always loved food and many of the women in my family battle their weight everyday. Well, when I was a sophmore in high school, I starting joining things and fell in love with a sport called crew. I also gave up sweets, pop, beef, pork, cheese, and pretty much anything unhealthy for lent. After lent was over, I had no desire to eat all those foods again and I was doing great. I went from about 195 my freshman year in high school to 130 my junior year. Well then I came to college. The healthy options that were available at school always looked wilted and gross and I gradually let myself do all the things I had stopped doing a few years before. I stopped working out, because the rec center was all the way across campus and it got so cold and windy on campus. I now am a senior in college and I am fighting to get myself to where I was. I am eating healthier, but at times I mess up and now I frequently have a taste for the unhealthy stuff. I am really busy with school, and pretty unorganized, so I never leave myself time to work out. I want to get back to where I was! I haven't weighed myself in awhile, we don't have a scale in my apartment, but I am guessing that I weigh about 185. I realized when trying clothes on this weekend, I am only one size smaller than where I was in high school I want to lose weight..but how to I get that motivation back?
  • Hi, I'm in university too, so I know your pain with unhealthy options at the cafeteria and the gym being far away (mine's about a 25 minute walk!) I don't know how exactly you will get your motivation back, but I know what got mine, and maybe that'll help:
    - I got organized. I told myself that I wasn't going to lose weight unless I knew what I was doing. I started planning my schedule differently so that I could fit in more time for walking, or running around in the cafeteria trying to find something healthy.
    - I started exercising more and felt more energized to want to eat healthier
    - I chose a weight I wanted to be, though I don't have a scale at University and decided that when I got home, I wanted to be that weight. And when I got home, I would fit into the clothes that I left behind.
    - I started putting all my food into Fitday to see my carb/protein/fat ratio and realized I was doing great with fat but terrible with protein, I didn't get any of it. No wonder I was growing bigger.
    And last, but definitely not least,
    - I started posting on here! Talking to a lot of people who were also conscious of what they ate and were interested in being healthy made me become more interested in them. Lately I've been hanging out with a lot of guys who can eat whatever they want and their metabolisms will take care of it. That's not who I am, and I had to realize that. Coming on here daily helps me keep track of my goals and be responsible with my exercising and eating habits.

    Anyway, sorry that was pretty long, I didn't mean to bore you , but hopefully it helps!!

    Good luck and keep posting! The forums here are super friendly and there's lots of different ones for different situations.
  • Thanks!
    Thank you so much. You didn't write too much at all. I feel like I do not know anyone else in my situation right now (who wants get healthier atleast) and I feel like I have no one to talk to. I talk to my fiance sometimes about it, and he is a pretty helpful guy, but I don't want to talk about it to him too much because I do not want to seem like I am too self conscience and that my weight issue has taken over my life...that definately is NOT attractive! Another thing is, he eats lots of food sometimes, and I spend a lot of time with him, but you are right..I need to remind myself that I am different and that I do not have his metabolism!
  • Oh, I'm glad it helped If you want to talk more ever about it, just PM me, it's nice to have people to relate to!! Or, don't be surprised if I do, just to commiserate.
  • You might check out the IE thread.
    http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/show...=93470&page=26
  • I checked out your thread Carol, thanks. I do have to admit one thing that I am am proud of, regarding my health choices, this Thanksgiving I did not get seconds of anything! I only ate enough to fill me up and I was barely even full when I had a small piece of dessert. I think it helped that I was at a friend's parent's house and did not feel comfortable pigging out. Usually every thanksgiving I get to that point were I am tired and I want to loosen my pants a bit. I also did tell myself over a month ago that I was not going to gain weight during the holidays like I probably usually do!