I haven't been sharing a whole lot here for awhile. I've been going through a difficult time emotionally. My sleep schedule is totally messed up (think night shift..but I don't work outside of my home
). I go from feeling 'so so' to just 'dead inside' to wanting to just give up. I probably should at least be on some sort of anti-depressant. I've already been on Wellbutrin (didn't do much) and Lexapro (worked for anxiety..made depression worse), and I'm not sure what I need. I'm already on a bunch of pills for thyroid, bp, and pain management. Unfortunately, we live in an area which is seriously under-served for psychiatric purposes. Counselors are few and far between. I've already been to a few of those who are here, and I'm not sure I'd go back. I'm dependent on my DH to get anywhere, because I'm physically unable (paralyzed right foot) to drive. I might be able to find help in Jacksonville, but that's at least 35-45 minutes away, and it would have to work around my husband's schedule. Even my prayers feel like they're just 'hitting the ceiling'
. Sorry for venting..and thanks for being there!


, and church yesterday was wonderful
. Of course, being part of such a wonderful group of ladies helps too!
I can only imagine how glad you must have been to see him 