I have done lawl since March 2006 and I've lost 44 lbs. I have struggled to lose the last 10-15 lbs. It is so hard to stay on track. I've been tracking my food intake and exercise in fitday for the past 2 weeks for motivation. I have been going to the gym 5-6 days per week and have had many good OP days except I am binging about once a week. One day last week I ate 5,000 calories and today I had about 3,500. I am so scared I am going to gain the weight back. I am an emotional eater. Everytime I have something major go on in my life I gain 30 pounds in a short time. I went from 140 to 170 lbs in 3 months when I started college and went from 170 to 200 lbs in 3 months 3 years later when I moved out on my own. In 2002 my family doctor told me I had depression and a food addition and gave me a prescription for prozac and wellbutrin and told me to walk outside for an hour everyday in the sunshine.

I know I have come far and I am proud of my weightloss but food is such a struggle for me. People who I have met recently and do not know that I am doing lawl make comments on how healthy I eat because I am always eating fruit and low-fat foods and I don't keep a lot junk in the house. The reason I don't keep much junk food in the house is because I will eat ALL of it within a day. I know people who have Easter candy in a dish in their living rooms and cookies in their cookie jar that are stale because they do not eat them quick enough. I have never been like that.

Does anyone feel this way? I feel so alone with my struggle with depression tendencies and food addiction.

Thanks for listening

I am having trouble too, I have 4lbs to go and I have been finding that I have been sabotaging myself lately. I really want to get down to my goal but I keep binge eating and my weight has been going up slightly or holding. My boyfriend and I made a bet and whoever gets to their goal first gets $100.
I can't let myself lose out on $100!!!

Merem - I have been on LAWL since March and have also lost 44 lbs. And I get the comments about eating healthy too. Even people who know I am on LAWL don't know that it's a struggle. I have fought for every ounce of every pound. While I don't have the struggles you have with addiction, I do know how hard it is to lose this weight, and am often worried about regaining.

Have you thought about Overeaters Anonymous or meeting with a therapist? They could help you face your troubles head-on so you do not feel so alone.

Post often. This seems to help to curb the slip ups. When you want to binge, come on here and read and post!

I joined in April I've lose 16.7 I have 12.8 to hit my goal. I feel like I've been sabotaging myself lately actualy it seems like since the first weekend. My family knows I'm doing this and they don't really to seem like to want to hit my goal even though they say they do and how good I'm doing, but at the same time they keep bring me food that they know that I LOVE it seems like it so hard for me to say NO to the food. I know that I need to do it for me and just say no to the food that they keep giving me. The COD keep giving me HL about it. I'm not having a good day today I'm not looking forward to fri WI. sorry about all this venting.

This was in a recent Jillian newsletter.....I think what it has to say is good:

Merem - Rest assured, there are a lot of folks that can't have "trigger" foods anywhere in site (I can't). You are not alone in anything you said here.

Hey Merem,
I actually have similar sounding problems. Last summer I gained 25 pounds in 3 months. It's hard when it comes on so quickly and all of a sudden you are in a completely different (and uncomfortable) body. My mom used to go to Overeaters Anonymous and she doesn't have any more food issues. it really worked for her. The support on this board is great too!

Merem and others - I understand also...I've only been doing this a little over a week and though I was not craving sweets for a bit, today I am swooning over the cake I see on television and am thinking about my lunch date Saturday at the Cheesecake Factory, secretly planning to take a day off plan...knowing I shouldn't. I'm in grad school and tomorrow morning starts my intensive 30-day comprehensive exams...I'm worried than in the midst of stress, I'll bag the diet and grab whatever is easy. My SIL lost 80 lbs on WW recently...she did most of it over a long period of time, but the last 10 lbs has taken her 2 mos and she's still working on it...and she runs 3 miles a day plus some...those last few are so hard, but they will come. I recently heard a quote from a wise woman (Dorothy Baldwin Satten): "If you can imagine it, your future will pull you into it." It's on my screensaver and dresser mirror.

Hi Merem...

First of all Congratulations on your weight loss!! They say the first step in making any progress is to admit that you have a problem. I, like you am am emotional eater. They say weight doesn't go on overnight but in my own situation I beg to differ...like you it doesn't take me long to gain. I suffered many years of emotional and physical abuse from my first marriage and food became my escape. Not making excuses for why I ate but I did come to realize after counselling that this was my way of dealing with things. Food became my comfort. Even now not in that marriage for the past 12 years I still find it is a hard habit to break. I eat when I'm stressed, etc...I am trying to find other ways to deal with these situations. So far LAWL has worked perhaps, because I have my mind more set this time. Whatever the reason I want to continue and have success. Don't give in to your triggers...find another way of dealing with it...Best of Luck!