So there I was, still full 1/2 hour later at 5:30pm, and I choose to ate a snack! Do I have something wrong with my brain or what?! One piece of white toast with butter enough? Nooooo. Of course not. Must have second piece of toast, this time smothered with peanut butter! AHHHh!!!! I swear I looked like a cross between Frankenstein and a robot marching into that kitchen for more to shove in my mouth. I feel like I'm stuck in a horror flick in the 1950's!
Move along to 8:00pm (bad time for eating, I know), still no hint of hunger, and I make microwave popcorn, just for the heck of it! I was actually craving a Diet Pepsi, and, you know, popcorn and soda DO go together.....
I do this all the time! Does anyone else? I really, really, really, don't WANT to eat all this, I want to lose weight more than anything in the world. I will sit there and have conversations with myself (well, they're more like nagging little fights back and forth. Quite annoying), telling myself wouldn't it be cool to eat only when I'm hungry and to stop when I'm the slightest bit full? Ya! That's the way to do it! No problem. Easy as pie! Hmmmm...pie. That sounds good. But I can't have my dessert until I eat my dinner. Yes, I'm not hungry, but it IS dinner time! Just like I ate breakfast when it was "breakfast time", and lunch when it was "lunch time". It's the rules. It's part of life. Why fight nature. I wonder what's in the fridge for dinner......
Makes no logical sense at all. Believe me. I know! I better get to bed soon before I either a) get hungry or b) my evil side decides it IS snack time, again!
Man, food addiction sure does suck.




