dragonwoman64: Your statment of not feeling that you could do things at your weight made me think of one of my biggest regrets: I can't draw.
Seems like a stretch, I know, but bear with me. When I was in grade-school and there was a drawing or other art project in class, I always felt like my sketches had to look good (really good, not little kid good). Everytime I drew a line that was too crooked, or a shape that wasn't quite the right size, I'd get frustrated, destroy what I had done, and start over. Of course, since I was a little kid and didn't let myself practice properly, I never got any better, and I finally got to the point where I stopped even trying.
I think doing sporty activities while being large is kind of the same thing. When I started playing racquetball I was lousy: not merely bad, but really stinkaroo horrible. If the ball didn't happen to bounce right back at me off the wall there was a 0% chance I was going to hit it. But this time I'm giving myself permission to be bad and keeping at it no matter what: and every week I am getting better and better.
So, the very next time something seems interesting, but you're unsure: go for it anyway. Let yourself start at 0 if needed, you'll be surprised at how quickly you can get it.
