Why is it that I walk around thinking that I look cute and then people take pictures and happen to catch me in a couple, I see the pictures and I just look like a complete cow. I cant even look at them again, I refuse. Now normally this would be a triggering event for me but since I'm trying to better myself, I did get sad, and beat myself up mentally, I'm still dwelling on it, but I haven't binged. I actually jumped on my bike and excercised. It won't do me any good to eat. I'll end up back in the cycle that causes the depression that leads to bingeing that leads to more depression that leads to more bingeing that leads to more depression. So I suppose I came out of the situation successfully although the pictures are still horrible LOL and I refuse to look at them UGH. One day, one day I wont be camera shy.

Good job resisting the desire to binge! I haaaaate pictures too!

Ehh, even thin people take bad photos. It's a two-dimensional representation of a three-dimensional object ... it's likely to be distorted. I didn't come to terms with ugly photos until I got my own digital camera and took about a hundred pictures of myself, only of which about ten look presentable.

Don't let something like that get you down ... YOU know how far you've come.

lol

I hear you, my ex was over this weekend and he was scrolling through the camara and I had to wresle it away from him. I had taken some shots to put on my dating profile and like the poster above, out of about a hundred only 8 or so turned out. Even with those I am not happy but it will do!

Oh, Mammasita... I could have written your post myself. (in fact, I had a bit of giggle when I read your post. Out of sheer relief that it's "not just me")
I feel SO cute. Like the old me. In fact, I would even go so far as to say that sometimes I feel like a total babe.
And then I see myself in a window or mirror or photo, and I am just MORTIFIED!!
I'm so glad to hear you got on your bike! Talk about inspiring, girl!! And you know that helps with the depression, too! You did the right thing, hon... you ARE a success!!

Yeah I was laughing myself when I was typing that.....for one I always laugh at myself anyway, and second, I was hoping someone could relate because I can tell you I was definitely "feeling" like a BABE that day HAHAHAHHAHAHHA

I feel exactly the same way too ~ I always think "oink oink moo moo" when I see a picture of myself, and I don't show them unless I have one of my before photos for comparison. BUT, on the positve side, I don't refuse to have my picture taken anymore. Although I still prefer not to take my picture.

And, I think like everyone, take MANY pictures of myself to get one that I like enough to put on my avatar. And remember how many pics they take of models to get good ones? HUNDREDS. I watch top model, and sometimes Tyra says, you had a HUNDRED frames, and we only found one good one. And those girls are models. And even red carpet photos are picked out of hundreds, if not thousands.

You know what....I am going to put my WORST and my BEST picture up (at the same weight). If we put it out there and just say - that's me!, I am going to change it if I don't like it! But I can guarantee that we will still find flaws in pictures we post down the line after we lose the weight.....
Let's be brave together - since we are on the journey to weight loss, we will never to have to see those "fat pictures" again. Let's lose together and take some skinny pictures when we get there!!!

OK - here goes!

This picture I have never showed anyone! ATV'ing in Mexico. EEK!


This one was the same trip - LOVE this one. Same weight same everything, just different "shot".

OK, First: Mammasita, you did GREAT with excersing instead of binging!!

Second: I AM SO GLAD I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE!! You know, I sometimes look in the mirror and think itīs ok what I am seeing. I even like my face (on good days). But I HATE; HATE HATE pics of me! They are soooo different from what I am seeing in the mirror!
And the worst thing is: Looking at a disgusting pic, trying to calm you down with the thoughts already mentioned here and then having your mother saying: Hey, what a good pic- looks excatcly like you!
And then I get horrified because I think: Oh, THAT`S HOW OTHER PEOPLE SEE YOU!! OH MY....

What makes taking good pics of me even harder is my lack of self esteem, I think. I just donīt have the guts to let someone take a pic without turning into Goofy. Or acting like running away.
Yes, someday (when I get a extra portion of courage from somewhere), Iīll ask someone to take pics of me- a lot of pics so I can choose which I want.

For me itīs quite the same with my voice: I didnīt had that much problems with my voice until I heard me speaking on a tape: horrible!! Like DaisyDuck with a bad cold!
But there is a physical explanation for that phenomenon- which I donīt remember at the moment. Maybe there is one for that pic- mystery as well.

PIPERBOO thank you so much for being so brave and posting those.....I MIGHT (lol) put some up tonight when I get home....if I can muster up enough courage......no promises though.

If we all do, then I think we realize we all have the same issue with pictures
Goodness I cringe everytime I scroll past that LOL.
Mammasita - you are doing great!!! 17lbs~ do you realize how much that is? A lot!! Don't let it get you down. I had a fleeting binge moment last night (KFC) and it ran through my head words from other girls on 3FC "NO THANK YOU to the extra lbs!" I ended up with a veggie burger from BK.

Geez, these are soooo me!!! I am the same exact way!!! Friday i thought ok i look presentable then i went to get photo id taken and well almost died when i saw it!!! OMG what a ugly cow!! Then came home and daughters boyfriend decided to take pictures on camera phone just horrible!! I am glad to hear though that i am not the only one that feels this way, hubby and kids get mad at me but, i throw 99% of my pictures away~~ oh my!!

Sara, you're gorgeous! I love your pics... thank you for sharing!

Mammastia, you've lost two more pounds!! Holy petolies, girl, that's wonderful! You'll soon be able to wear a ribbon (like they give out at WW) saying, "I've lost 20 pounds!"

I was thinking about you girls when I went to my weight-loss clinic last week. I was striding along, feeling trim and slim and frickin' GORGEOUS, when I suddenly came face to face with a mirrored window. Honest to goodness, I stopped dead in my tracks. For one split second, I thought I was walking towards a short, dumpy, middle-aged woman.

I feel this way all the time.....for me it is trying to undo years of feeling inferior to everyone.

That's why I'm also working on the INSIDE as well as the outside.