Hey guys. Quiet in here lately.

My abstinence is good, but the rest of me is a mess. It must be PMS.

Hi Marny

Everything is going pretty well. I have had so much stuff going on this past week that I have not had the time to think too much about food, which is a good thing! I have eaten out more than normal and have had to be careful, but it wasn't all that bad. I think I have finally gotten more 'settled' with my eating plan and abstinence... and of course handing over the control is a wonderful thing too Not so much to worry about!

Hugs for you on the PMS! I hope you are feeling better quickly!

Water--
Great to hear from you and know that you are doing great foodwise.

Yes! Handing over the control is wonderful! I'm trying to remember to do it every morning.

Marny

Well... not sure how I'm doing yet, I am just preparing to start.
However, I DID buy a box of garbage bags today, and emptied out my cupboards, fridge and freezer of all crap. Quite the feelings with that ordeal, but overall felt very liberating!

Marny, big hugs, sweetie... I'm just getting over "that" myself. Why does it have to consume such a large part of our lives!?
Be good to yourself, and hopefully it'll pass quickly. If that were only the case...

Hi All. I know I'm not probably invited to this thread, but wanted to chime in.....My cabinets are finally getting empty. But I'm scared. Scared to go to the store. I'm afraid I'll buy all the WRONG things again and start all over again.

WHY is this so difficult?????? I just don't get it. It should be easy. Just stop eating the crap foods, exercise, take my meds (doing that), and testing my blood sugar. (not doing that) But why can't I just do that? IF I did, I would be just fine, or so my drs and everybody tells me. Oh if you only would do this you would be just fine! Just makes me kinda angry sometimes that people always think they have the answer to your problems and they may have never had a weight problem in their entire life!

Oh well, here I go again, rambling again! Gonna shut up now.

Lady North-- Wow! You took a HUGE step! Great job!

Ellis-- Thanks for you support. you always have something positive and nurturing to say. :-) I'm feeling great today. My sponsor has been super fantastic this last week and has really given me some great spiritual food.

Sassy Chick-- Not invited? Of course you're invited! I'm so glad that you chimed in! It's not easy. Nothing about food addiction is easy. It says in the big book that it's cunning, baffling, and powerful. It can't be controlled with moderation. It's a disease of the mind, body, and spirit that you can't recover from yourself. It takes a lot of tools and help from your higher power. My recovery has come through going to meetings every week, talking to my sponsor every day, reading OA literature, committing to an abstinence plan, prayer, giving my food and will over to God, and giving service to others. It's not easy...you can't just "do it". But, the tools to help are available. We're here for you! You can't, and don't need to do it alone.

Shel, you jump right into any thread you like, sweetie. Marny is so right... this is a "disease", plain and simple.
I'm so sorry you're having a difficult time. You're right... it sounds so easy, doesn't it? So why are we still overweight?
If it's any consolation, it's huge that you're not giving up. Because a lot of people do. They "come to terms" with being heavy, and while I'm all for us feeling good about ourselves, I don't approve of getting comfortable with being obese. It's not healthy, and it's not comfortable.
Don't you give up, girl... we're all here for each other in this battle.

And hey... look at the 3FC sisters! (and Oprah, if you're a fan ) They've struggled for YEARS, and they're still struggling! There's no getting around it... this is going to be a life-time of work for some of us, but we are not failures. We are achievers.

What about sitting down with a few recipe books and trying some new recipes? Something really yummy, but healthier than you would normally have. Including snack recipes.
DH and I just did a grocery shop, and that's what I did before we left. It's so easy to buy pre-packaged food and junk food. I'm often guilty of that.

BTW, is that your wedding photo? You're gorgeous, girl!!

Marny, I'm so glad you're getting good stuff from your sponser. It must be wonderful to have that kind of support... I'm really happy for you.

Aw thanks girls.

I guess I just had to get that off my chest. I don't want to give up this time. I've given up too many times and don't want too now. Okay so maybe I am not losing a ton of weight like a lot of ladies on this site are (way to go to those who have!) I read Meg's story lastnight and it inspired me. :

Yes that is my wedding pic. I got brave enough to post my pic, although its 7 1/2 years old and my wedding pic, hey its a start. Also I don't have many pics of me after my wedding because well I didn't want it taken. lolllllllll.

I forgot about Oprah and her struggles infact I think she just admitted she gained 10 lbs because shes been struggling lately and of course the 3fc Sisters.........I guess we all struggle, I guess sometimes we all feel like we're all alone but that is why we have this wonderful site, right?

Thanks Ladies!