I was on the bus with my fiance yesterday, as it stopped outside a McDonalds, and I didn't care....a month ago I wouldv'e gotten off right there ordered a meal, and something to take home. (
Embarrasing, I know...) But I wasn't even bothered by it - at all!! And this is huge for me, esp. after 20 days of not having anything. But even though there is a risk of binging by depriving myself, I can't let myself give in at all, it's just the way my mind works, "just a bite" has never been an option for me. But luckly I've FINALLY noticed that, and with the continued support of my fiance (and my now clear mind) I know I can hold out. My mind no longer screams out for my trigger foods, I feel like I've broken some mental chains, I don't feel dependant on food anymore. I've stuck with my calories everyday so far - all good foods, too! Even though I say "it's day 20" this isn't something I'm only trying to do for a little while, I'm hoping soon my body will notice how much better it is with better foods and not scream at me for the bad ones. I'm just taking it as it comes, day by day, minute by minute. Here's hoping I can continue to release myself from the hold food has had on me! Hope that wasn't TMI.
Melissa W.
