My moment of truth came on October 9, 2005. I stepped on the scale after a very long time away from it. I was expecting it to say 175, 180 or even 190, but instead it said 204. I had never been over 200 in my life. I am 5' tall. I was a size 18/20 at the time. After that weight in, I basically shut down a little bit and just felt depressed. Then I said. Obviously, this is a wake up call and something needs to be done.
I have a history of diabetes, heart disease and obesity in my family. A little bit from each side. I decided that starting October 10, 2005, I was going to "beat the odds". I did a lot of research online. Looked for the right diet. After reading pros and cons on each one, I thought to myself. You've tried dieting. You've yo-yo'd your whole life. You have to find another way. So then I starting looking at "healthy eating" opposed to "dieting". I found
www.mypyramidtracker.gov A fantastic site where you can journal your food and based on the USDA Food Pyramid, you can find out if what you are eating follows those guidelines. There is also a physical activity tracker and an energy balance feature. This feature lets you know if you have eating more or less calories than you have burned in one day. A wonderful way to know if you are making a difference. So not only was it telling me how much fat, carbs, calories, etc...I was consuming in one day, it was telling me my levels of nutrients and vitamins. Over time it can give you a healthy living history for eating, physical activity and energy balance. This is helpful to monitor treads and stuff. I even checked this with my doctor and he encouraged me to give it a try.
So once I had discovered this wonderful, free tool. I started entering the food I was eating the next day. I was surprised to discover just how much I was eating. How much saturated fat, sodium and other things I was eating in excess. That quickly changed. Over time this tool helped me get a grip on how I was eating and gave me the tools I needed to rediscover good food and just how well your body functions on good, clean, lean food.
I also discovered prevention magazine. What a great read. Then I started going back to Bally's after a 5 year break. I worked out there for 4 months before I decided to buy my own home gym. Which I now work out on 4 - 5 days a week. Weight training will start up again in June. I have been recovering from surgery for almost a month. But before my surgery I was doing 90 mins a week of strength training. That made a huge difference in my progress. I am 161 lbs as of 3 weeks ago, which was my last weigh in. I am not going to weigh myself again until June 27th, when I have been able to strength train again for 3 weeks. I am also a size 10/12. I feel great, I look much better and people just can't get over the change I've made in myself in almost 8 months. I want to do it properly and slowly. I still have 36 lbs to go and I am giving myself a year from my birthday this year (June 9th) to do it. I know that seems like a long time, but I know I will struggle when I get down to the last 20 or so pounds. I don't want to get discouraged ever. I am allowing myself room to groove.
For me, this was a life long solution to a life long problem. I know I can do this for the rest of my life. With 11 more lbs lost I will go from Obese to overweight. Then in with 20 more lbs lost, after that, I will be "normal". I am in the best health I have ever been in in all my life. I want the holy grail. I want to reach the top and keep climbing. I am not that girl anymore. The one who thought so little of herself to lose all control of her health and eating. I am now a responsible, healthful, conscientious eater, who still has a lot to learn and conquer.
Thanks for reading...