Do you ever catch yourself planning a binge? And trying to justify it in your mind?

This morning I was driving to Target and I started planning a binge. I was going to go to the movie theater. I can hide there, in the dark and no one will ever know that I consumed an entire large tub of greasy buttery popcorn. No one will ever know that I ate a box of candy, and drank a large soda. And whatever else I put in my purse to sneak in on top of that. It didn't matter what movie I was going to either, I wasn't going for the movie. I was going for the food.

I was fully ready to do this. I even stopped at the theater and looked at the times.

By some miracle I snapped out of that. I drove straight to my parents house (where I am now) since I knew my dad would be home today. I told him that he can not, under any circumstances let me go out of his house today. Not until I *need* to go home.

I have no idea how else I would stop myself from this. I am powerless to food.

Yes I have and I don't always handle it as well as you did.
I was thinking tho' at least you were planning. In fact you could have worked at your thinking and planned a good eating spree just as easily, right?
There much good said of planning what you're going to eat next.

You are powerless to food! You recognize it and believe it. That is HUGE! You made the choice to not binge, and that is also HUGE! You are taking great care of yourself! You are learning and healing. Hurray!

Wow, I'm really impressed!! Congratulations on getting yourself out of a messy situation!!
Yes, I can relate very well to planning a binge. I frequently use it as a reward. "I'm tired and deserve some me time, so when I'm alone this afternoon, I'll eat this and this and this..."

Food really is evil to me I have no control around it... so I'm finding that I have to VERY carefully plan out what I'm having for meals, and when I go to the store I only go for that exact food... It's really been tough for me!

Yes, I have. but mine is usually the " I've had a hard week I deserve a treat".
Yes one treat that lasts the entire weekend. It starts with one food item and
snowballs into the whole weekend over points.

Amen, sister....

-La

It sounds to me like you are NOT so powerless after all. Yes, I've caught myself doing that, but like you, I've also stopped it. We do have power over our thoughts and actions, we just need to remember that instead of defeating ourselves.

Mel