i also posted this in the WW section but decided to post it here also, i hope that is okay!
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Hi! i just started doing weight watchers flex plan about 3 weeks ago - but i dont go to meetings - and am unsure if i have lost anything as i refused to step on a scale til this morning when i finally got myself to suck it up and step on.. well, i didnt cry but i did use some very unlady like language when i saw that i weighed 40ish pounds more then i thought i did

I have lurked here a few times but never joined in, but after this morning my first thought was that i need some help and support, i cant do this alone! so i came here and signed up and look forward to getting to know everyone.. i'm a chatty person so i will probably just jump in, i hope that is okay

Thanks for reading!

and i wanted to add this is a Huge step for me, to actually weigh myself AND tell someone else what i weigh (even if its just in cyberspace).. i had not been on a scale since my last ob/gyn appt. when i was pregnant with my daughter (over 2 years ago).. i was So afraid of the number

Look at it this way... now you have a starting point and can track how much you lose. If you hadn't weighed and kept right on thinking you weighed 40 pounds less, this how upset you'd be when you lost 40 pounds and stepped on the scale and were right where you thought you started (did that sentence make any sense?).
To be able to see progress, you have to have a starting point, otherwise it's all just sort of abstract. At least now you have a way to track how far you've come.

I totally know what you mean about being scared of my first weigh in. I actually hadn't been able to weigh in at my doctor's office for several years because the scale only went up to 350. I remember how horrifying that first time was when I stepped on and the scale couldn't even read my weight - how mortifying. When I finally bought a scale that would go up to 400, I found I was only slightly above 350, but it was still quite a shock.

The important thing is starting from where you are and not letting a number get you down. Please feel free to jump right into the main 300+ thread, and welcome to 3FC!

Thank you for the welcome
and you totally made sense, and this is also what i thinking! i thought man that would have been Really upsetting to get on a scale after noticing i had lost weight and to have it be higher then what i Thought i started out at.. plus now i cant play dumb with myself - even though you would think my reflection would be enough - i feel like now i am officially accountable, i cant go back to my old ways KNOWING what i weigh! i hope that made sense!

i know how you feel boy did i go into shock in Feb. at my gyno oncolgist office when i weighed. i decided there and then i would lose at least 40 by the time i go back at the end of June. if this stupid plateau would end!i might make it!

I am so depressed today, I will be better tomorrow. I decided about a month ago to try to get rid of some of this weight(doing it on my own) Today I went to the doctor and I weigh about 193 not the 183 I thought. I have high blood pressure and today she put me on fluid pills along with the high blood pressure pills. I would like to join a group but live in the country and nothing is close by. Anyone got any suggestions. Being fat stinks.

I remember first stepping on the scales when I bought them. They went to 150kg (330lbs) and I stepped VERY carefully on them, hoping that the needle would stop soon... it didn't. It went around once, then started to go around again!!!! I was disgusted with myself, but obviously not disgusted enough to seriously do something about it. That took about 6 more months after I had gained even MORE.

I also relate to the feeling of 'knowing' you are overweight, but not really believing HOW overweight you are. I used to look in the mirror, dressed or undressed, and see that I was 'big', but never really seeing just how enormous I was. It would always take seeing photos (of which there weren't many!) to show me how big I was, and then I would just shrug it off as being a REALLY bad photo.

Mind you... I still have trouble with body image and can't really see myself as I am today either. I still feel 'big', even though people tell me I look great and don't need to lose any more weight. I'm hoping that will settle with time.

Robin, we would LOVE to have you join in on the continuous thread on here. You will receive wonderful support, encouragement and advice from the fantastic people in here. This whole site is just the best! I wish I had found it earlier in my journey instead of towards the end. At least I found it huh?

Take care,

Zelma