I will be in the hospital only until either Sunday evening, or early Monday morning (God willing there are no complications). It's just me and Dh here. All of our family is in California as we are in Missouri. I haven't even told any family that I'm having it done. My mom would worry so much, that I'd rather just surprise her with a visit over the holidays this year and let her see the 'improving' me

. I cleaned out my kitchen cabinets today. It helped pass the time. When the time came to start my 'prep'.... well let's just say I couldn't keep any of it down (YUCK!!!) I called my doc and he said as long as I've been on clear fluids all day, I should be good to go in the AM...
As for getting to this point it's been a long road. I started thinking about WLS back in early 1994. I found out shortly afterward that I was pregnant (SURPRISE!) We had been battling infertility for over 8 years at that point. But in August when our daughter was born prematurely... we were devastated. She only lived for 80 minutes.. **sigh** (long story here, but that's for another time). A friend I worked with ended up having her RNY done that December. She's down 115 and looks GREAT! After a year of grieving and getting stuck in my life (or lack of one) I realized I had put on an additional 40 lbs since loosing my daughter.... Now I'm at my heaviest. I'm miserable. I complain all the time b/c I hurt so much. I would love to be the happy (ier) person I know exists someplace INSIDE, but she's covered up by so much.. so much pain and dissapointment... that only added to the weight. I'm praying that shedding the weight will give me the oppertunity to shed the misery too. I was lucky to have my inital WLS consult with my primary doc on 1 feb. Then on 8 March I met with the surgeon, and it was submitted to my ins. On the 17th they called me to say I was approved and that my date was the 31st. So it's still alot to get my head wrapped around, only because the 2 weeks from approval to surgery date flew by so QUICK!! Well ladies I guess that's about all for now. I'm gonna shut the puter down for the night. Bad storms coming our way. Keep your fingers crossed for me... and thank you for your support thusfar!!
Hugs,
Sharmel