a big fat pig and I am so disappointed in myself!!! Its been in the 80's here the last few days so I go to put on some shorts and I am just so disappointed in myself! I just feel so blah and that all my weightloss efforts have gone down the drain! I just really hate myself right now!

Laurie, you haven't failed yet, and the program hasen't failed you as well, you just hit a bump on the road, and you just need time to re-focus on what is important to you, remember what it feels like when you loose those pounds. Think about what you have learned, it is hard to loose weight we all know that, it is easier to gain weight than to loose, but be strong and close your eyes and imagine yourself at 150. You are strong and we are all behind you and you can do this..

Please don't hate yourself. That's what gets us to being overweight in the first place. You are nine pounds down and that is nine pounds that you won't ever have to see again...as long as you love yourself to just keep on at it. Just think! a few months from now ...when it is really really hot, you will have lost even more weight. The more you take off, the better your going to feel about yourself. What your feeling, I know a lot of people, incliuding myself have felt many times. I think what helps me through those nasty days is focusing on the future and how good I'm going to feel even a month from now. ....and sometimes I just allow myself to feel bad and then the next day is usually better.I cry, I get mad..I just do anything but try not to go to the fridge to gorge myself. But just remember, you won't be this weight forever..you will lose it! I'm sorry your feeling so bad. I hope you get to feeling better.

Laurie-I'm with you. I had a dream last night that I was wearing a bathing suit-and the sight didn't make me vomit! Then I woke up. Blech. But I know that unless I keep coming back and trying, I am going to keep getting fatter. Right now I am the heaviest I have ever been. I am 224. And seriously mad about it. I have GOT to take this weight off. I feel hideous. So I'm really going to work. Come on, Laurie. Do it with me.

Ladies! This self-hatred has to stop - don't make me get the whip! A pause in your weight-loss efforts is NOT the end of the world - it just delays things a bit... think of it like a sabbatical... now you're back. No point in dwelling on it - just keep on rolling.

I want you to think of how GREAT you will feel at the end of TODAY when you have done everything the way you planned to! Just worry about today - the future is promised to no one...

Okay?? Put it behind you - no more self-deprecating remarks! Remember: Your body hears everything you think!!!

I ditto all the comments so far. Excellent!

Laurie, the self hatred will make you go to the refriderator. Don't do it! I know it is hard. But think of what you really want. Just start eating better! When you go to make a meal then really think about the consequenses of a fattening meal. Think about how good you will feel about yourself when you choose the right food. In the moment you may be pissed but in the long run you will feel better in more ways than one! Please do this for yourself and your kids!

Laurie, Marcie, and anyone else feeling that way -- do this. Go outside, scream at the top of your lungs, and stomp your feet just like having a temper tantrum. Tell yourself you will NOT do this any more and it stops right here, right now. Then take a huge deep breath and start all over again.

Tell yourself and write a list and write the same list every day -- do not just look at the same one -- write it again and again.

I will drink my water every day without fail.

I will do some form of exercise every day even if it's only 10 minutes at a time.

I will eat every 3 hours without fail.

I will plan each meal and eat each plan.

I will weigh and measure my food and watch my calories.

I will know how many calories my body needs each day and I will stay within that guideline.

Before putting food in my mouth, I will ask myself out loud "do I want to eat this or do I want to be one pants size smaller come Memorial Day."

I will love myself because I am the only me I am every going to get. God made me and God does not make worthless things. Everything God makes is good, beautiful and precious. And so am I.

I believe in me and I am worth it.

I will come to the boards for support and sharing.

I can guarantee you if you write it down and you believe, the weight will come off. I started on Fat Tuesday and I'm down 4.5 lbs.

You can do this. We all can. But we have to do it together.

Laurie! You are an amazing woman! You deserve to be happy! You have been working so hard to change yourself and are well on your way to a healthy you! We may not look like those super models on the run way wearing Victoria Secret lingerie but we are all beautiful! Beauty is not only exterior, it is also interior! You have made the decision to change your life for the better and that is one step in the right direction. Unfortunately, we can't lose weight overnight! If we could, we'd all be slim!

Here's a quote I love to remind myself through difficult times: "You didn't put on weight overnight, so it won't come off overnight either! "

Weight Loss is one very long bumpy road! Every day, we make new decisions! Sometimes, it's easier, sometimes it's harder! But in the end, what is important is coming back to what we know is right for us!

You can succeed in losing weight once and for all! Come on girl! Get back on that wagon with us. The light at the end of the tunnel may seem to be very far right now, but it is there! Your weight loss journey is not just about the amount of weight you lose! It's also about how you feel now compared to how you felt then!

We're all here to support you and we understand how you feel. Your efforts have not gone down the drain as long as you keep coming back to the program! You can do this Laurie! You know you can! Ask yourself, if it's better to go back to what you were before eating unhealthy?

Did you take some before pictures? It's important to take before pictures. It helps us remember in difficult times, what we looked like before and see the progress we have made so far! You have lost 9 pounds to date and that is excellent. Losing 9 pounds is better then not losing anything or even worse gaining weight!

Ok Laurie......you were my very first inspiration......let's get up and get going!!! You are not a quiter my dear. We are all here for you and we are waiting on you to join in the April challenge with us. We know it's hard, you know it's hard but you did it once you can do it again........

WE ARE ALL WINNERS......WE CAN DO THIS!!!!

Phyllis

It looks like everyone has covered the ego boosts- I'm 100% in agreement.

Here's what you MUST do right now. Today. Go to the drugstore and get Jergen's Natural Glow moisturizer (or similar but this stinks less than average) for your skin tone- Marcie, don't think I missed your comment! You have to go, too!- and put it on your legs.

This is not a weight issue. This is pre-summer albino trauma. Being Irish in Wisconsin, I am an expert. Regardless of my weight at the time, I have a major meltdown every year when I pull out my summer clothes. Then, I pick myself up and get some bronzer. You can even put it in the fridge for a refreshing cool down if you feel you must go to the fridge for relief!

How's your tan coming along?

I hate what the weight does to use...
When I get on that scale and it is up I turn into the biggest B and if it's down I am doing the dance...I hate it I hate it!
I am a smart woman, I know it's only a number but it controls me...
My heart aches for you and I think we should keep bumping this thread since it is so insperational...I am SO HAPPY I found this site.
Lou

I know I shouldn't have done this. The scale read 141 on Sunday morning and I was happy- that's the lowest it's been since I quit smoking. Yesterday afternoon, I jumped on and saw 148. That's right! One-f'in-forty-eight! I'm bloated, cramped and getting ready for my TOM and I know better! I really do! Damn!

I'm putting on the self-tanner this morning, ladies!

Don't worry about the scale. It's not accurate right now with TOM around the corner. Experts say the best time to weight in if one must do it to maintain their weight is right after TOM. It's the best time where your body is normal.