I hated what i saw in the mirror.. but it's not like i can swim in my jeans

I kept telling myself i WILL look better in it once i lose this first 30lbs.. but i felt like such a cow.. and i have to wear it in public tomorrow!

Many, many people don't like bathing suits, no matter how thin they are, and honestly, people don't really pay that much attention to others cause they're probably more concerned about the way they look in their own bathing suits. So go out there and have fun with your little one! 

I'm sure I have some sort of deluded body image problem, where I think I look better than I do!!!
Right after my 20th birthday in June...wish me luck! LOL!