I've posted on this site a few times about a year ago, but then kind of fell wayyyy off the wagon. I'm getting back on now, and want to do it right.So . . . My name is Jenny. I'm 28, and am from Chicago. I am just shy of 5' tall, and weigh about 198. I have been overweight all of my adult life, and that has to change.
When I try to think about what has gotten me to this point, I can't pinpoint one or even two things that have caused me to be this heavy. Inactivity, certainly (I have some health problems that make things a bit difficult - I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia about 8 months ago, have carpal tunnel in both wrists, and have a bad knee that hurts most of the time.), a sweet tooth, the fact that I'm wayyyy too short
, who knows. My fiance and I are getting married in November . . . here's my motivation: http://www.casablancabridal.com/Prod...on&SubCat=2005. But more importantly, I want to look, feel, and BE healthy.
I want to do this right, and I want to make changes that I can sustain over the rest of my life. I'm making an effort to be more active, and I'm counting calories using FitDay. Here's my Fitday Journal: http://www.fitday.com/WebFit/PublicJ...wner=BingleBug. I am trying to stay at around 1500 calories a day, and to make the majority of it good, wholesome foods, like fruits and vegetables.
As for exercise, I do have a gym membership, but my fiance and I both work two jobs, and share one car. It's very difficult to get there. So instead, I'm trying to walk our puppy twice a day for a half hour each time, spend half of my lunch hour walking, and to do my pilates video at least 4x a week. I'd also like to try to swim a couple times a week. I'll see if I can fit that in.
It's only been about a week, and it's already really challenging. I start work at 6:30 each morning, so I have to get up at 5:00 for my first walk. Our lives are crazy busy, and unpredictable. We went grocery shopping on Sunday and bought only good stuff to eat, but haven't managed to eat dinner at home even once all week. I'm trying to make good choices even when we eat out, but it's hard. I also haven't made it home in the evenings before 9:00, and by then I'm absolutely exhausted.
I seem to be easily discouraged by so many things - when things don't go according to plan, when I don't see results, etc. My fiance tries to be supportive, but I don't think he understands how important this is to me, or how bad I feel about myself in my current state. And one of his favorite ways to show me how much he loves me is to cook me something yummy

I think I need support, motivation, some way to keep me going. I know that I'm not alone (so many people are going through THE EXACT SAME THING), but I feel completely overwhelmed, and like I'm just destined to fail.
So there you have it. I'm sorry this is so long. Thank you so much to everyone who made it through all this drivel
and to anyone who responds.Take care, all



I'm planning on working on that this weekend lol
