i have been thinking alot about this and i wondering what ur guys reasons for losing weight. The main reason y I know all of you guys are losing weight and including myself is we all wanted to be healthy. But do any of you have any other reasons y u guys r all trying to lose weight (selfish reasons). The main selfish reason y i am trying to lose weight to have my glory with all the ppl around thinking i cant do this and having them be floored. esp the one guy friend i had, i wanted to go out with wouldnt go out with me because the way i had looked. (fyi-i dont talk to him anymore but i do want to see his mouth dropped to the floor lol I wish we can just all get together for the summer rent a house to have to be right there for eachother. So no1 can fall into old and bad habits i am basically by myself besides u guys in the weight loss journey. i get no support fr family and friends and that hurts. u know?

HW-310 2/6/05
CW-257 11/26/05
GW-150 ( i will meet that )

Cute Poem

I Dreamed I Was Pretty

I dreamed I was pretty last night.
My spirits soared high in flight.
Life was good and I enjoyed living.
People were kind, receptive and giving.
Here as I sit in the broad light of day,
I do so wish it were that way.
How I wish with all my might
I were as pretty as I dreamed last night.

I dreamed last night I was pretty.
I was laughing, flirting and giddy.
There seemed to be nothing I was afraid of.
I felt secure, protected and loved.
Reality, however, is not as kind,
and I'm aware it's just not my time.
But soon I will bloom and then you will see
just how beautiful this woman can be.

Soon I will rise like a phoenix from the ashes
and shed these pounds.
I'll be elevated up on wings
above the glares, insults and stings
where I'll come to rest in the place of my dreams,
Nevermore forced out on awakening.
And there I will cling with all my might
to remain as pretty as I dreamed last night.

I AM as pretty as I dreamed last night.
My spirits soar high in flight.
Life IS good and I enjoy living.
People ARE kind, receptive and giving.
Here as I sit in the broad light of day
I see that it always has been that way.
Now I'm sure with all that's right

that I AM as pretty as I dreamed last night.

I have several reasons
1) Health, obviously
2) To gain self confidence which will lead to making friends and better interviews, etc
3) I live in an area now where everyone looks like Barbies and it just makes me worse in comparison
4) Even though I'm married I'd like for the first time in my life to have guys checking me out when I walk down the street

Those are the big ones I can think of right now.

My actual MAIN reason is health. I've been having stomach problems due to BC pills i've been taking for the past 2.5 years, and i finally got off them. Being physically active actually reduces my tummy aches, and such.

My other reasons are i have never been "fit." I want to see stomach muscle, and no more cellulite on my big butt! As small as i am now i still don't have the type of tone i want. I want to be able to run and not get out of breath so easily, especially since my lover used to be a runner. Last but not least I want to feel sexy when i am naked in front of my lover.

I really can't remember why I started out - just so that I wasn't a porker and probably to do with a man dumping me! He thought I was too fat (not in so many words, and it was before he dumped me, but it didn't help!).

But now I want to continue, because I want to be fit - I want to see muscles, I want the ripped abs I saw on a kickboxing girl, I want to be strong and sexy and above all I want to wear a frikkin bikini! One day, one day!

I have several too...

1) I don't want to be known as the "fat mom." As much as I love my own mother she is very obese and sometimes I was embarassed growing up.
2) I want to be able to play sports with my son without wearing out.
3) I want to be HOT...not just cute, nice-looking,...HOTT.
4) I miss the confidence I had when I was thin...I'm really not even the same person anymore.
5) I want to be skinnier than my skinny friend again...she's constantly making comments about how fat SHE is, which I know is really to draw attention to how skinny she is compared to me...and I want that to stop.
6) I want to feel sexy again...to the point where I'll actually have sex with the lights on! LOL

I also have many reasons besides the to be healthy one.

1. To be a good example for my children.
2. I had a fat mom as well and I don't want my children to ever feel like I did when my mother came to my school.
3. To look better than my sisters. This is my favorite incentive by the way.
4. To look wonderful for my husband.
5. To be able to walk up to my ex's and show off how great I look now.

1. To be able to fit in a roller coaster (I had to miss out on a trip to an amusement part this year because I knew I wouldn't fit. I was so mad)
2. To feel sexy
3. To not feel so out of shape and unhealthy all the time ie. losing my breath after only climbing a handfull of steps.
4. To FINALLY be able to shop in a non plus size store. I don't remember ever being able to do that
5. To have more confidence
6. To stop being the fattest one in the group

When I was 15 and started this all, I must admit my reason for losing weight was only superficial. I was tired of being "the fat girl" in high school, tired of not getting any boyfriends, tired of having low self-esteem, tired of having trouble finding clothes that fit that weren't matronly. I thought losing weight would *poof* make all my problems disappear. Of course I learned that wasn't true. As I got older and continued on this journey (I don't know if you've read my history - I didn't yo-yo so much as stair-step my weight - lost a bunch from age 15-16, lost a bit more at 20, lost the last bunch from 22-23), each of my 3 weight loss periods and even inbetween grew increasingly about being healthier and more connected to what my body truly needed. In March of this year I was up to running 30 miles a week. Man, it felt SO good to come home on a Saturday morning after a 6 or 8 mile run. I would eat my small second breakfast, good food to nourish my body and that was all I needed, drink water, and just "feel" every part of my body. I was so self-aware and connected. I wish I could get that feeling again. But I love being able to do whatever I want or what my job calls for - for example, I just started scuba diving, or that I'm not afraid to climb all over boats in front of people. My uncle recently passed away and an aunt probably won't make it through the year. It's a good feeling to know that there are some diseases in my family I can't do much about, but staying in good health now will help me head off a few. I'll admit my reasons for wanting to keep the weight off are still partially superficial. I live on the beach, I want to look good in a bikini. I love it when my boyfriend calls me sexy. It's convenient (financially, time-wise, etc.) to be able to shop almost anywhere.

I guess I have a lot of reasons.

Beyond being healthy, it's about appearance for me. I have to admit, if all the exercise I do made my hearth healthy but didn't change how I look, I wouldn't be as motivated to keep it up.

One big thing: not being afraid to see pictures. When people used to pass around pictures, first I made excuses to myself, like "what an unflattering angle I chose!" Then I realized that every angle looked about the same since I was overweight. Now I certainly don't look like a model, but I don't dread photos in the same way.

Ooooh, that's a good one! Make this my #7.

I have lots of reasons...
But the main reason that got me moving is that I hated crying all the time over my weight. I wanted and still want to feel good, to look good, and to be more confident in the skin that I'm in.
I started gaining weight my first year of college about 4 years ago (I know I know...I'm suck here for life!). So it's been really tough to cross that line. 4 years is long enough for me!

I can't wait until I can get into my prom dress again. I was able to get it up to my thighs but it wouldn't go over my butt. (I step in it because it's one of those full gowns that's really long). I'm hoping when I get home for Christmas, I'll be able to get it on. I'm not planning on it zipping up in the back but I'd be happy to know that I can at least get into it...again.

I want to be fit, and I want my weight to not be an issue. I don't want to be stick thin and gorgeous necessarily (although I wouldn't complain ), but I didn't want to be in a position where I put off doing things because of my size. I wanted to be a size where I could do whatever I wanted without having to worry.

Where people look at me and notice my hair, or my dress, or my sparkling personality before they notice my stomach.

Oh, and the looking better than my sister one. To be honest, I never actually thought I would, but I'm now a mere 9lb heavier, several inches taller, and stealing her clothes

I have a gazillion reasons as well:

1. Of course health
2. Feel good about myself. Be more confident. I know what it feels like to be close to goal and I sooooo want that feeling back. I can taste it
3. Look good in lingerie. My bf loves me in lingerie but I hate wearing it because I don't feel sexy. I want to feel sexy.
4. Be in shape and be able to run at any moment. Who knows what could happen.
5. Show my friends and family I can do it. That it wasn't just a one time thing and that I can make a lifestyle change. I too was the fat girl in highschool who had a bestfriend who wore a double zero!! Ugggh the memories return I never got the boyfriends and was never paid attention to. I am no longer that girl and have gotten a lot better but I want to show them that I mean business.
6. Just be a better person overall. I have a great job, loving boyfriend, great friends, a cute as can be dog and now I want the body to match.

There are about 10,000 more I can write , but I'll stop at that

My biggest reason was self confidence. I hated feeling embarrassed and upset about my weight all the time, and feeling like I was helpless to do anything about it. Obviously appearance was an issue too, and health! I hated always slowing everyone down all the time -- I love hiking, but I have only gone a couple times because I would always end up alone a half a mile behind everyone else or with the one person who thought that for safety reasons nobody should be alone at the back. How embarrassing!

I have to say another reason was to prove to myself that I could do it and I didn't have to end up as overweight as my dad. (He is 5'5" and over 200, and it is certainly not muscle.)