I was thinking about somethings I noticed about myself

The week I was on vacation , I didnt workout as much as I normally would have and I started to try to talk myself out of working out. Yup I about wanted to slap myself when I was figuring that out.

As much weight as I have lost my mind keeps telling me that I am as big as I was before. I can not look into a mirror and see the new me. I cant.
Its something with me I know and I guess I keep this in my head because I know I still have a long way to go till I can even think about just maintaining.

Im not drinking enough water

Im not watching what I eat close enough. I need to journal again and see what im doing. Especially measureing my portions. My portion sizes are wrong I know they are.

mmmmmmm... yeah.. me too.. I've been having to fight with myself to excersize this last week.. We are in a heat wave and I keep telling myself.. "when it cools down" Well, it was still in the 90's last night at 10pm! I have to be willing to go to any lengths to reach my goal.. The portions too.. I have to constantly keep myself in check on that as well.. amazing how a deck of cards can grow!

I've been really "bad" this week as well (partially due to circumstances beyond my control), and have been alternating between feeling guilty and feeling relieved. But I decided to take a different approach: see how getting little exercise (compared to how active I've been the past few weeks) is going to affect my weight loss. I'm sort of expecting a motivational kick

I just got back from vacation and before I went I was exercising every day and since coming back, I find myself making excuses on why I can't give that tread mill a work out!

I can't seem to get up at a decent hour. My husband works the night shift lately, and I get the creeps. So I sit up late into the night and don't wake up until like 10am, and when I do wake up I feel crappy. I need to just force myself to get up at like 7am, not take a nap in the day, and then maybe I can fall asleep easier. Also not drinking proper amounts of water...

Don't give up girls! Yall can do it!

The things I am working on changing:

~Keeping up my appearance lately. I am finding that when I perform or go "trooping" (I am in a dance performing company, and I also am in the costume design business, and wear costumes for media events dressed as movie characters) that I am all "dolled up" in my costume and stage makeup and all that...but when I am at home lately, and running errands, and so forth-that I just look like crap! I run around in sweatpants, and my husband's old t-shirts, and my roots need recolored, my toenail polish is chipped-and I really need to just quit doing that. I have the time to keep myself up better, it is just a matter of doing it. I used to put on scented lotion after my shower, and I have gotten out of that habit...I used to put eye cream on before bed and hand lotion...and I have quit doing that...I had a lot of "quick" little beauty things throughout the day that only took a couple seconds here, and a couple there.
We had a really busy season (on both job fronts) and I feel like I just got "burned out" and am not back into wanting to fix up myself for everyday again yet.

~Stop letting other sabatoge me at family events. I have been staying on plan pretty much the past few months, but have had the scale stuck for a while. I will be on plan all week long, and then hit a day where someone at a family gathering will force an extra portion on me, and I give in. Not enough to do any damage as far as me gaining, but just enough from really stopping me from losing, you know? I really have to quit that!!!!!!!

I hear ya!

I skipped the gym yesterday morning, but rode my bike at lunch time. I get so discouraged when I manage to talk myself out of getting up. The alarm goes off at 4:40, which seems to come way too quickly!

This morning I knew I wanted to do both my upper body and leg workouts because tomorrow I want to ride my bike to and from work so I would miss the gym. When my alarm went off I shut it off. I had to talk myself out of bed. I was actually saying in my head "OK, on the count of 3 - 1, 2, 2 1/2, 2 3/4 - and just dragged my butt out of the bed.

A couple weeks ago I was reading about someone's stuggle very close to goal. I thought to myself, "Man, if I was that close I would just be going all out to make it!" - then I realized. I AM THAT CLOSE! Not to my final goal, but I was 2/3 pounds from a major goal of not being obese. I made that goal, but my next one is just 9 pounds away. I want to be 156, because my lowest weight in memory is 157. Then I want to be 149 so I can move the doohickey on the scale to "100". So, I am that close to my goal. Duh!

So, what I want to change is my mind. I need to really continue to push myself and not get lazy!

Bodies in motion tend to stay in motion and bodies at rest tend to stay at rest. I too find that when I'm in the habit of exercising every day I do well, but little things that throw off my schedule for a day or two make it harder to get back going afterwards. I almost always *do* get back to work. But only after having that mental argument as to whether I'm going to take off "just one more day!"

Morticia, the image you see in the mirror will eventually catch up to reality, it just takes time. It took me a long while to really see it in myself. I think with me it was that for a long time my body image was distorted in the opposite direction. I didn't think that I had gained as much weight as I really had. Once I started losing weight I almost saw myself as looking worse, just because I had finally taken off the rose colored glasses.

Having a poor body image is a big one for me right now. I see my progress, I know how much better I look but I still don't look good enough. I've finally matured enough to know that I'm not going to lose weight and suddenly be tall and thin with legs that go on forever. As a matter of fact, after having children, I am pretty realistic about what I can and can't accomplish without surgery - LOL. I'm working hard right now to appreciate what I have even if I never learn to LIKE it.

The interesting thing is that if I stop paying attention I really like what I see. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror at the gym and didn't even recognize myself. I did a double take because in that split second I registered that I'd seen someone familiar - I just didn't register that is was me. And, what do you know, "fat" never crossed my mind but "fit" did. Of course, when I realized I was looking in a mirror all of a sudden all I could see was flabby arms!

Oh my goodness! I'm glad that I'm not the only one who's been getting lazy about exercising!! The past couple of weeks have been horrid!! But, my schedule has been really messed up. I was unemployed for about 7 months, so I could always exercised whenever I wanted and as long as I wanted. I got a job, going in at 11am - 5pm and figured that I could exercise in the morning before work. But then I started having to come in at 8am and things just got totally messed up. So, this week, I've been forcing myself to go jogging/walking for at least 20 minutes in the morning and also do crunches and push-ups. Then, when I get home from work, I got jogging/walking again for about 20-30 min. I have to say that I was pretty upset when I realized that I hadn't lost any weight this week! I think I may be hitting a second plateau!

But, yes, your body image does change although it takes a while. I remember looking at myself in the mirror when I was FAT and not recognizing myself. For quite some time during my weight loss, I just couldn't see the "new" me. I always kept seeing the old, fat me. Now, I look in the mirror and I LOVE what I see, but I'm back to almost not being able to recognize myself again! LOL

I don't have any problems with overeating, but my main problem is getting myself to exercise. If I could just walk and lose weight, I would be happy, but I know that walking just doesn't get my heart pounding hard enough!!

Hey girl, you're in Hattiesburg? I'm down in Picayune. Greetings.