Hello! I am 32 years old, have been seriously changed my lifestyle, which has resulted in a 92 pound weight loss. I do have a homepage where I not only share my victory in my weight loss journal, but also, How I have managed to take possession of my body! I was molested when I was four years old repeatedly by an older cousin, he was just the first of many, but he was the only one who was a repeat offender. He used magazines to convince me to take off my clothes. He would say: "See, how pretty these girls are, and they don't have their clothes on". That moment, I made a vow to myself that I would never look like those "whores" who so choose to display themselves that way. When puberty set in, I was very depressed. I didn't want boobs, and all that hair, but I couldn't stop nature from taking it's course. What I did when I started getting unwanted compliments, and flirtations from young testosterone driven men, I began to stuff my face. I would eat until I could eat no more. It was hard to put on because I wasn't sedantary, I was very active. But I was a size 14 & 16 by the time I graduated from high school. My friends would tell me that "the guys say that if you lost weight you would be gorgeous". I would just cringe, because I didn't want to be beautiful. But there was a part of me that would want to be pretty. Well, My first round with battling with my weight and trying to decide to get healthy was when I was wearing a size 22. I had lost about 2 sizes. But then, I would get unnerved, and anxiety attacks would come when I got advances from men again. I put my weight back on and more. My highest weight was 276 pounds! I have a wonderful husband, and he compels me to be better...and I broke my vow to myself, and decided that I was not going to let Terry Finley rule my life anymore, that I was not going to be robbed of my health, that I was NOT going to let my sexuality be robbed anymore. Since that decision...I have lost 92 pounds, and I feel so good. I still have a long way to go, but I desire to reach between 120 & 125. I will know when I get there. But if you would like to see my pictorials in my weight loss journal, you can click this link:
http://www.hppd.net/monascloset/journal13.html

Refuge,

CONGRATULATIONS on your 92 lb. weight loss!! BRAVO!! and also for gaining the strength to overcome the past. I, too, am working on overcoming past events and directing them into more positive changes in my life. I thank you so much for sharing your experience and I am on my way to check out your website.

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Congratulations on your weight loss!

I checked out your website and you are a testimate to the idea of loosing weight is not just simply eating less. It is a whole mind and body experience. I'm so glad you are healing on the inside and now ready to tune up the outside.

Congratulations again.

It's great to see that you're doing it the RIGHT way, instead of relying on "weight loss remedies" and the like. Keep up the great work, and you'll be at your goal weight in no time!

Hello Refuge. You are truly an inspiration. You have certainly gone through the metamorphasis....and blossomed, overcome all your obstacles. Thankyou.