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Well, hello ladies. How are you all on this spring day? Today, I am feeling much better. I had a crap day yesterday. I got up and felt OK. Then I started to sort out a bunch of the gender-neutral clothes that my sister gave me in to sizes, and I just started to cry. I don't know why. I wasn't sad, or upset about any"thing" I just couldn't stop crying. I cried until about 1pm and then I fell asleep for 2 hours. I felt better afterwards, like nothing had happened. It was horrible, b/c I knew DH couldn't do anything about it, and I didn't know what it was that was bothering me. But then after my nap, it was gone. Did that ever happen to you?? Well, DH had to go to work and he didn't leave until late, then he just grabbed his stuff and came home b/c he was worried about me. But I was OK by then. I don't know why. And I can't tell my middle sister b/c she blabs to our psycho aunt all the time and that is horrible. I can't tell my oldest sister b/c she WANTS me to fail or have a bad pregnancy or have a bad kid (she is always jealous of how good my other sister's baby is and goes ON AND ON about how she hopes her next baby is a hyper and finiky kid like her own are). The competition is horrible.

Anyway, it's been crappy.

Well, the baby just decided to turn over in a meeting and someone pointed it out and my boss freaked out b/c she finds it so gross. Oh well - it's natural and I can't help if my stomach moves sometimes!! It's not like I can tell the baby to stay still!!

I am also worried b/c I haven't gained any weight in the past 2 weeks. I should gain a pound a week now. I go to the doc on Thursday. part of it is I can't get a lot in at once and I don't eat frequently enough (why can't that be the case when I am NOT pregnant??) but part is also that I throw up sometimes still from Morning sickness. Hopefully baby is OK. If my stomach has grown this time, then it's still OK I think.

OK I have to run. I'll try to post a pic of my pg this morning though.

Belle

This is 2 weeks ago at my dad's wedding...

Belle- You are beautiful. You look so good pregnant. I love it! It sounds like you are pretty hormonal maybe because you are pregnant..hehe. You brain was just over reacting to the normal (crummy) stuff you go through and pumped a little more estrogen to deal with it then normal. I do that same thing when it is that time of the month, I will cry or get very mad at the silliest things and I will take a nap and I am fine. Your body just needed some rest to get back to normal. You seem pretty healthy and right on target. Don't worry.

I went to a wedding this weekend, and everywhere I turned was, I kid you not, tall, skinny, blondes. I don't know where they all came from. They were all very southern, there hair was done, tight tops and gossip and gossip. My friend was getting married and I love her to death but I had no idea she had all of those friends. It is in a very small town so I guess they were just trying to prove something or whatever. Anyway, I just felt like a big log and ate too much cake.

You guys I have been doing horrible. I have been exercising, but not as much as I used to. I am trying so hard not to give up. My husband is getting bigger too. We are letting laziness take over. I am going to study for the GRE a little bit and then hopefully take the dog for a walk/run. When I ran, I felt so good and I was so healthy looking. I need to get back in the groove. I am trying but temptation has won over.

I hope everyone is having a good week so far.

Hey all,

Just dropping in for a quick line... Still waiting for insurance to fix our house. It's been a tough little time waiting for our house to get repaired... Eek.... I haven't gained weight I don't think, but haven't lost much either, although my clothes are getting looser... I attribute that to all my activity... wish the binge monster would disappear though.

Had my dysplasia appointment 2 weeks ago... The bit they removed didn't contain the bad cells so they will probably have to do more surgury later on. For now they gave me a deeper pap smear (which hurts) and I just have to wait.... man as much as I am a left wing idealist, I wish our medical system was faster.

I am running a 10K race in 2 weeks and that should be fun since it's a chipped race. I have my high school reunion in three weeks... I am starting to get cold feet about it. I don't know why.

Anyway Belle you look great!!

JK: running is a great stress buster! enjoy!

Cheers!

Ali

Hi, ladies, long time, no see. I'm am STILL on nights. I was supposed to be done with nights on March 24 or something like that. Needless to say, I'm about ready to go back to days. It's looking like we may go back to days Memorial Day weekend. The first thing I'm doing when I switch back is getting sinus surgery. I've had several sinus infections since January so my Dr. finally sent me to a specialist who had a CT scan done on my sinuses and recommended sinus surgery. At first, I was scared and didn't think I'd have it done, but I feel so miserable lately that I can't have surgery soon enough. Unfortuantely, nights are making me a little bit depressed, as well. I try really hard to stay positive and "up", but this is wearing on me. First of all, I have a terrible sinus headache (constantly for about the last three weeks), then I came in to work tonight and had a scathing email from my boss, saying that I haven't done anything all outage (since February) and then I'm sad because the boy I was dating is going back to NY and I probably won't get to say goodbye to him. And I applied for a different job inside the company I work for and interviewed two weeks ago for it, and haven't heard back from them. It would be a big pay raise if I got it. My guinea pig, Petunia, is sick and I'm afraid they won't be able to do anything for her at the vet. I like the guy from NY that I'm seeing enough, but I have a major major crush on one of his co-workers who I'll probably never see again. It's hard to work with contractors, sigh... So, yeah, I'm down and although I'm certainly trying to be optimistic, I can't.

Things aren't great on the weight loss front. I blame breakfast. Bryan (the guy I'm dating) and I were on the same shift and would go out to breakfast almost everyday. And of course I didn't get a fruit bowl or anything that, oh no. Instead, I got eggs, hashbrowns, pancakes, and milk. On the bright side, I haven't gained much, maybe a pound. And since he's leaving, it'll be easier to stick to it.

Belle (beautiful mommy!!!)--I have crying spells like that every few months or so. Sometimes we get so frustrated with everyday B.S. and it just builds up inside of us and we have to let it out. Didn't you feel a little bit better after your nap? Your boss sounds strange. Yeah, some things about pregnancy freak me out, but for the most part, I think it's a miracle. Perhaps some sensitivity training would be beneficial for her.

JK--I know it sounds totally unsympathetic of me, but I laughed out loud when you said "I felt like a big log and ate too much cake". Don't let girls like that make you feel bad about yourself. There are countless surveys of average American men who say that they prefer women like you and I--we take care of ourselves, but we're not super high-maintenance. And, actually after working in a trailer full of single men, I've actually heard it straight from their mouths that they would prefer a girl like me to the hair-sprayed, overly-made-up, tight-shirted, heavily-perfumed, tall, blond, skinny type. So, rather than feeling bad about yourself, you should feel sorry for those women because men don't want anything but a roll in the hay with that type and they want something special with someone like you. Now, go take a walk and work off that cake.

Ali--What's a chipped race?

OK, ladies, I gotta get back to work so my boss doesn't think I'm not doing anything on nights. (Man, that really hurt my feelings).

See ya!

Hi girls! It's raining and dark here, and it was REALLY HARD to get out of bed. I had to go to work dinner last night with an executive that laughs like Sponge Bob. I was giggling the whole time b/c of that (his jokes weren't funny, but his laugh was!!).

Thank you all for the compliments - I was dressed up though, for Dad's wedding...I wanted to show you how big my belly is. It's even bigger now. Like a beach ball.

JK: There is nothing big log about you. You are thinner now then I have been since fourth grade. Unrealistic Barbie-girls aren't anything to make you feel bad. If you really look at yourself, your features, your body, your whole package, you should see that you have all that going for you and you don't have to wear tight shirts and bleach your hair blonde (or you might bleach your hair blonde, but not for the same reasons). Anyway, don't let yourself feel bad. It sounds like you're in a rut right now, but this will pass and you'll get your second wind!! Just wait for it!!

Ali - yikes, another pap. Poor thing. I hope for you that the medi system is speedy and get this over-with!! My thoughts are with you! Are you back online now? I hope we see you more!!

Jess - sorry to hear about Petunia! I know how that is. I knew there was nothing I could do for Barney (dog) but I kept trying experimental drugs until finally I realized it wasn't fair. I still miss him! My dad is getting sinus surgery as well - his bone is growing into his sinus cavity and he has constant infections. He's miserable. I think that getting over pg will help with mine, though. (hope hope). I feel your pain! Literally.

Well, I should go and get some work done.

OH Kier! Where are you? I hope you're doing OK, I read about your pt experience with the mirrors....this happens to us all. I hate to see pics most of the time!

LOL- I don't die my hair bleach blonde, I don't die my hair at all actually. I felt better after my husband started whispering in my ear and pretending like he was a gossip queen. I think he was in shock on what he saw too. He thought they all looked the same and tasteless. So there is another male opinion.

Jess- I am really sorry about the sinus surgery but it sounds like you truly need it. I hope everything goes better at work and with the boy situation. At least you will start eating better.

SweaterGirl- I had a dysplasia appt. today. Have you had surgery before for it? I had surgery last year and had 3 paps normal and now this one is abnormal. They just told me what ot expect again and blah blah so I have another appt on Tuesday. Did you have a colpo? I cried when they did that to me..it was horrible. I don't know if we have the same thing but I am really down about it.

Well today is when I started eating better. I couple of hours ago my stomach started having major spasms and pains because i haven't been eating right. Digestive problems. Unfortunately we are going to Fl on Thursday and see my grandma (which is great) but she bakes such good food. So we will see what happens. I am just going to try to fill about on a lot of veggies. I hope everyone has a good day.