Ever seem like there is not enough time in the day? I need more days in my weekends.
I cancelled the gym today... I will go tommorrow in the morning. I also need to have my credit cards locked up. I went shopping again, just for shoes, but ended up with a lot more. Must stop!
This morning my step daughter had her youth bowling league. They won 1 out of 3 games. It's okie, she andthe team had fun. That's what counts.
I had a panic attack today tho. When I was looking at all the kids and looking at their scores and clapping for them when they got spares or strikes, I had a panic attack. I started to think all the parents were looking at me and wondering what I was doing to their child and why I was looking at them. I had to leave. I mad eup an excuse to James, told him, I'm falling asleep lets go out for some fresh air.
I didn't tell him til just now as to how I was feeling. He said it's understandable. I have an appt with the dr. at cal state next week to give me some more meds for my asthma... (a prescription for an inhaler) I'm going to ask her out the psychology department works. I don't think it's free and if it;s not, dunno if I will be able to afford it. But I wanna talk to someone, get this documented. My migrains, my panic attacks and so forth. I can't believe how much this is affecting me... other than being severly pissed off.

*sigh*
Sue....