Hey I'm old here but need a new start. I've been off track since the beginning of January. I've gained back all I've lost except 4lbs. I've recently started planning for my wedding, which is going to be September 1, 2006 and I've realized that I do NOT want to have to buy a size 20 dress for the biggest event of my life. I never went to school dances because I felt to fat and couldn't find a dress that fit me.. I'm not doing that for my own wedding. I have to make a change in my life to be happy, I'm not only making myself miserable, I make everyone around me miserable because I'm always in a bad mood, I'm lazy, I don't want to do outside activies cause I get tired to fast, I don't like going out to eat cause I feel like everyones saying "she's doesn't need to be eating that", I don't like going to the bar and partying like normal 19 year olds, I don't like meeting new people cause I get so jealous of "skinner girls" expecially when I'm with my fiance cause I feel like he's looking at them and not me anymore, I don't like to, well... "get intimate" cause I feel uncomfortable... I need to change and I need to change now..
This time I have faith and enough willpower to do it!
