I have recieved a few messages from people wondering how I am. Well as they say in program; food is powerful, cunning, and baffling. Things have gotten bad. I have no idea what I weigh because no one will tell me, but my jeans are 6 sizes bigger than they were a year ago so its not good. Looking to go to a day program or in-patient. Things are rough going, but as some one recently pointed out to me, I am a survivor. Now I need to learn to do better than survive and thrive.

Congrats on the baby Kat, I know you don't have long to go.

ODAT
Miss Chris

Hi Chris, thank you so much for checking in. I have to say I've been wondering and worrying about you a lot lately. Please remember that no matter what you are going through we will always be here to support you. I hate to see you isolate because it's when things are bad that you probably need the support the most. Please allow us to walk with you throughout this journey, and carry you when you feel as though you can no longer walk. You are such a strong, wise, beautiful person, and I know that you can find your way through this. Please let us help you find the happiness you so rightly deserve. Good luck sweetie.

Thinking of you,
Beverly

I'd like to echo Bev's words, Chris. When I first found 3FC and decided to stay, it was in great part because your posts drew me in. You've lent so much of your wisdom to others and now you should let us try and return the favour.

I remember reading your post in "our stories" and thinking that life had certainly dealt you some difficult cards to play with, but what struck me most was how matter of factly you had related your story without any "poor me" or "why me" statements. To me, that shows acceptance of what's happened in the past and an unwillingness to let the past impede your future success. It was your strength that shone through.

So you've taken some steps backward - that just proves you're as human as the rest of the world. Thing is, you already know in your heart that you can (and will) go in the direction that's best for you. Yes, food IS powerful, cunning, and baffling. I haven't figured it out yet. I'm sure the vast majority of us haven't. Let's all work on it together!

Take care,
Jill

Dear Rochemist, Glad you wrote. The journey is hard and long but it helps me a lot to see the recovery process as a journey . Being able to reach out and not isolate shows that you have taken a big step, I"ll be praying for you a fellow COE,Susanna

I'm not a regular to this forum, but I have also wondered how you were doing. I know you are struggling right now, but I am heartened to hear that you are exploring solutions. That's a very positive action and I hope you recognize it as such and take some comfort from it. I am pulling for you.

Chris, you know I'm always here for you if you need me. We all are.
Love you, sweetie... xoxo Ellis

Chris,
I've been wondering about how you were doing, too Take care of yourself, we're here if you need us.

Mel

Hi Chris! I've missed you, too, and only wish I knew what to say to help. I'd have to agree that you ARE a survivor and will find it inside yourself to put this at bay. ODAT, indeed! (((HUGS)))) to you.

Dear Chris, not sure if you're reading or not, but know that you have been in my heart and on my mind for months. I know that this time is tough, but I also know that you will win this battle as you have won even harder ones in the past. You are an incredible person...don't let cunning food tell you different, okay?

I hope that you can find the resources you need to make the decisions you know will help you find the light. We'll be praying you through, okay?

I'm so glad you checked in! I was "just browsing" through the threads about a year ago, and I found the OA support thread. After reading your posts, I decided to check out OA online. I'm now a meeting leader. I want to thank you, and encourage you. I'm still struggling; although I've found a sponsor and I'm working the steps (Step 4 ). This disease IS cunning, baffling, and powerful; but it's not hopeless.

I put my hand in yours..

and together we do...

what we could never do alone!

We're all here for you!