After all that lamenting I did over the Taco Bell lunch, my boyfriend brought home a chili cheese burrito and a mexican pizza last night.

I asked him if he forgot I was dieting but I ate it anyway.
I've been doing so well, and it's downright silly to obsess the way I've been. Not that one meal is gonna make a difference, but it can obviously add up. And besides, I only have control over one meal at a time, and I'm not ready to set my weaknesses up just to feel guilty and out of control when I cave in. I don't want that vicious cycle to start up again.
While I was eating it, I told him I was gonna be ticked if I even gained one ounce at my next weigh-in.
I shouldn't have worried. I checked the scales this morning and I've lost another pound. Stupid me, worrying over nothing.
I thought this might be a good time to mention an email I received quite a while back that talked about quitting smoking.
A gentleman recalled an incident from his childhood in the email. He and a friend were climbing a tree, not realizing that the branches were brittle. Their mothers came out of the house and saw both of them perilously high with the wind picking up! One mother screamed at her daughter, "Susie, don't fall!" The other mother screamed out, "Bart, hold on tight!"
Guess who fell.
That's right, Susie was the one that fell. Why? Because the command she heard focused on falling, and she had to think about falling and then come up with a solution to keep from falling. Perhaps that isn't the best approach. Bart was suggested a more positive and direct approach.
So when it comes to smoking, the gentleman said that the mistake most people make is focusing on what they shouldn't be doing. Instead of focusing on not having cigarettes, perhaps it would be better to focus on breathing fresh, clean air? Focus on the idea that your body is being purified and becoming healthier? That we should focus on the positive in everything we do?
So I figure that we should do the same with eating, exercise, and how we feel about ourselves. I know it's easy to lament over and focus on what we shouldn't have (my recent Taco Bell and McDonald's issues can attest to that), but why not shift that focus toward healthier food? Focus on the taste of something healthy and fresh, and focus on how it's going to help our minds and bodies feel better. I try to imagine myself tall and lean and strong when I exercise; it really helps me go further. And I try to remind myself I'm worth it.
I mean, when I think about it, what have I been telling myself and what have been hearing from others all my life? Karen, you shouldn't eat that. Karen, I know you don't like to exercize. Karen, you shouldn't eat so much, Karen, you're too fat and that makes you ugly.
Well, I think you get the idea. No wonder I wasn't interested in doing anything to help myself.
And with all that being said, I think I'm gonna have Subway for lunch.
