No one replied to the last thread.
Anyone out there?I am doing fine. Exhausted, which is really wearing on me. But happy to be pregnant.
Anyone out there? So when do you go for your ultrasound again? Once you find out the gender are you going to name the baby right away? Hoping for a girl or a boy? Gee I get so excited when someone I know is pregnant. I really do miss it (of course you forget all the bad times easily enough -- except for the labour, I still haven't forgotten that pain!! But well worth it though.) Bleh. I just feel bleh. 
I've been eating healthier and my weight is great... I'm at 142 which is awesome considering 7 months ago I was at 220!! Woohoo! I am planning to go to an OA meeting tomorrow night (first time) and I am scared to go. I know I have to go but I am so nervous. I called the person and left a message, I'm hoping they will call back and tell me what the meetings are like. I tried an online meeting but I didn't feel comfortable in it, I think an "in person" meeting might be better for me, although I am dreading it, and especially going alone. I really need the support of others who understand what this is like. It's not about "dieting" which I have tried to make myself believe it is about, and my friends who "diet" (without the food addiction) do not understand fully what it feels like. It's more than just exercising and eating right, in having the addiction, most of us probably "know" what we "need" to do , we just can't do it, not by ourselves anyway. Since I was about 10 my life has been about addictions. Food addiction when I was around 10 because my parents were divorced and my mom worked and I was alone and felt really sad and alone, and without direction, so I ate to feel good. That addiction turned into drug addiction, then I got pregnant and married and totally got away from that addiction(the drug one) as I totally only cared about being a good Mom and caring for my precious child. So I was "safe" (so I thought) to fall back into food addiction. That lasted through the years, and then Internet addiction, that one I've kind of worked through and back to Food addiction.(although I doubt I've ever left food addiction)... I think I fall into food addiction so well because it's "legal". 
I don't know, but I can't keep on feeling like this, I have been crying and so down on myself and sad, I really need to get out of this bondage and be victorious over my eating. Thanks for listening and sorry to come back like this, (emotional like I am)....I just need to know there are others who "really" understand.
The pregnancy is going pretty well. The exhaustion isn't as bad - next week starts my second tri. 
So my goal for the week is to go to the gym at least every other day, and try to get there within two hours of my scheduled time lol. I am already seeing/feeling the benefits... I fall asleep so well now, and have more energy during the day (which hopefully will help with getting me out of the house faster ) and I can already feel some nice muscle definition in places I didn't know that muscles existed on my body. I am sore... but it's a good sore. 
