helllllo everyone,
I'm 25 years old and have been fighting an absolute war with extra weight my whole life, but of course the real problems began in the adolescent years when I actually started to put myself down and feel bad about it. I have tried anorexic eating habits, I have tried bulimia ( although that was all quite a while ago) I did years of body damaging, appetite suppressing hard drugs (you can all come to your own conclusions on that one, and I'm sure anyone's guess would be more or less accurate) I was down to a comfy size 34-36 two years ago, but the whole year was spent eating tuna and cabbage and no fat or anything else really and I just couldn't live that way. After years of self abuse I am now 195 lbs and I just want to be comfortable in my body, you know? I have been excercising pretty regularly for the past two months and have probably lost about ten pounds but I'm at this point where it's just not steady, so I'm starting the South Beach diet tommorrow! Wish me luck! My goal is 155 lbs...it sucks feeling badly about myself even when I'm alone, how wrong is that?! I know that I am to love myself no matter what the size, but I want to be a little smaller, a little freer in the world ( not carrying so much baggage, haha) so I just wanted to introduce myself and my story because I think that I need this community, so hi y'all...ps I'm canadian eh! Anyhoo, I don't have the book, but I was wondering where beans fit into the mix and the phases, I'm pretty poor right now... that's it, that's all... I look forward to hearing from those of you who are walking a similar path in life, we have something in common.
