just had a thought cross my mind while reading Cosmo. they have an ad for that "H & M" company (cheap clothes.) this ad had a girl modeling a bikini. needless to say, I was jealous. "I wish I could look like that," I said to myself.
anyway i started thinking, "Hey, I CAN look like that, or at least pretty darn close!" But that thought has been pushed down inside me for so many years. You see, a long time ago I thought I could NEVER EVER look like that and I sort of accepted it. "it's not me, it's not my genetic makeup, I'll always be a little chunky, etc etc etc." but really, I think in telling myself that, I gave up. I thought I would never achieve the "Ideal" so why even try?? but i realize now, everyone has a different "ideal" Sure a lot of the models in magazines have amazing figures that I'll never achieve, but I can achieve something that makes ME happy, makes ME feel good, makes ME confident again.
So I am not giving up, I am giving this all I have. It is now or never! for 10 years I have been telling myself to give up because I'll never be this or never be that. I don't have to be THIS OR THAT. I need to work on being the best possible ME I can be! healthy, fit, strong!
God Bless you all!
