I have decided to go find a gorgeous piece of lingerie (which I never wear
) and buy it in the size I want to be for motivation. I know that doesn't garuntee (sp) that it will fit the way I want it to when I get there, but hopefully it will be close enough and I may treat myself to some plastic surgery when I'm done anyways

Maybe soon I'll check into trying it on. ROFL. Right after I try clothes on right? 