Okay this is going to sound crazy but I went over some of my step work last night with my sponsor and then talked to a friend on the phone. I was emotionally drained by 10 pm and went to bed
and woke up at midnight thirty. I had a very bad dream, I think it was my disease looking a little like Skeletor from He-Man
Anyone else remember He-Man and the Masters of the Universe. In my dream he had drugged me and was going to pump me full of venom so I would embrace him again and be his queen
I found all my strength and reached over to demask him underneath there was nothing, and then the laughter. I told him I would never be his queen and then I woke up. Weird huh! Feeling a bit hungry I went in to eat and make excuses to not go to the gym
Instead I swear to you I heard God talking. He was telling me to go, that it was going to be okay. The time off from the gym had helped my arm, but not to push it. Make a plan and go Chris you'll find out how good you can feel
So I went and looked in my excercise log its been almost 1 month to the day since the last time I went and really lifted. I was stronger
in every area except my back and that usually comes back pretty fast. I felt wonderful, and then the voice of sanity jumped back in. Twice a week for now Chris, you are still healing upper body and lower body. The rest of the time its low impact aerobics and Yoga to heal and love yourself. It just made so much sense. Wow with this yacking it probaly should be a journal entry, but I want to share my sanity with my friends.
Speaking of my friends where is Christy?
Come out, come out where ever you are!
Sarah- Don't forget to love yourself and the special person you are. Let her not only watch your body grow smaller but your heart grow larger and more beautiful
You a special woman.Kat- Sounds like a lovely day Monday. Besides of the loving cleaning and excercise I want to do on my week off some hanging out and enjoying the day sounds great.
Ellis, Jenelle (healing vibes
), and Angi have a wonderful Tuesday and BE GOOD TO YOURSELVES. I love you all!
Miss Chris



He can't just putter around the house and enjoy it like I can.

Just finished typing up sub plans because I have tomorrow off! Woo-Hoo!
Love it!
I'm really nervous. Hate going to the doctor because I'm always scared they'll find something wrong with me. And guess what? Last year they did! This is a new doc. I decided to change because my old gyn (been with him for 10 years, two pregnancies, one hysterectomy) didn't do an examination before he released me after my surgery last year. Hmmm...you removed most of my parts, forgot that you left my ovaries, your nurse asked me at a post-op appointment how my new baby was
, and you don't think that you should maybe take a li'l peek inside and make sure everything is healed?! Naaah; you'll be fine, girl.
Who me, bitter? Actually, not as much as I was!