Thanks so much everyone! You guys are so nice and supportive. I do feel a lot better. The weekend wasn't so great, i didn't workout or follow my meal plan and i was feeling so down, but today I feel great and I plan on eating better and working out. I feel more positive. When I go back home to get everything checked out I'll give everyone an update.
Going home does make me feel better. cause I love seeing my 2 year old niece. I miss her the most. I miss my parents and brother as well but they're not as cute as her lol. I've always been depressed though. And always did use food to make me feel better, or make me feel something other than pain. And it does make sense that since I don't have it anymore (in super large amounts) I have to feel everything I tried to bury. I always thought that it's just the weight and if I lose it I'll be fine. Cause that's what everyone tells you, if you lose weight you'll feel better. But i'm feeling very positive right now. I'm going to get through this cause i've gotten through much worse in my life.
I wish it was the easy to make friends.
Before I moved here with my boyfriend, he told me all the young people (18-25) do here is drink, smoke, throw parties and hang out at bars. All the things I never do. I was like yea I guess they all do that right (sarcasm). And when I moved here I found out for myself that it's true lol! The people that use to live in the apt next to us threw parties every night. They got kicked out after one of their drunk friends went crazy and started tearing things apart. I have to admit it was fun to watch but called the cops anyway.

Me and jeremy go for walks a lot and we always pass by a party, no matter what street we are on, there are a bunch of kids drinking and acting stupid. I was amazed. So all I have here is jeremy. I don't need a lot of friends to feel better but one would do just fine. It's nice to hang out with just the girls. Jeremy hates when I give him a facial and paint his nails. LOL
I do go to the library a lot. But i'm way too shy to start talking to people. But Once people get to know me, they tell me to shut up lol!
Well I'm going to do some ab toning. Thanks again! You guys rock!!!
good luck on that job interview!!