I'm sorry.....I understand this is a new thread and we shouldn't drag garbage from the old thread here, but for some reason....I feel like
I should be explaining myself, but I'm not sure why.
Let me explain to you why I first came to this site aproximately two years ago.
I was just beginning my weight loss journey and I was looking for recipes...ideas, anything supportive or that would help me achieve my goals. (My WW leader had actually suggested it)
Anyways.... what I actually found was this wonderful thread and these wonderful people. I actually found people, who were just like me! I realized that there are actually people out there in this world that were my size, that had the same fears, the same goals, the same wants and needs and it felt great!
So, being the trusting person that I am, I took people at their word.....and for the most part, I have NEVER been sorry. For the most part, I've always felt glad that I shared my life, my love and my heart with everyone here.
Although I have been hurt at times..... I have forged ahead. I know and I understand that no one is perfect. I know that, because I am not perfect.
But I'll tell you something else. I am not deceitful either. And I may have a husband, and I may have two beautiful children, but even if I didn't..... I certainly wouldn't come here and fabricate a person and make fools out of people that care about me.
I'm sorry if people are lonely...... I have lots of friends that aren't married and do not have children. To be honest, I have more single friends than I do married, but none of them would create such a whopper as this and feed it to people that loved and supported them.
I guess maybe in this case, I am not understanding...... I guess mainly because I cannot UNDERSTAND. I don't know why someone that we have been friends with and tried to help, support and love would tell us literal MONTHS of lies.....going into great detail. Frankly.....it even scares me.
I hate the fact that I now have to feel guarded. I hate that I feel that I have to watch what I say because I don't even know who I might be dealing with. I feel like I have been violated in the worst way.
The thing about it is...... the story always seemed kinda far fetched to me, but I took her at her word, because after all, in the end.....isn't that all we have? OUR WORD is our bond. One day, when it's said and done and we're laying in a coffin, it will not matter what kind of car we drove, what kind of house we lived in, how much money we had or what type of job we went to everyday. What will matter is what was truly felt and how we treated one another.
I for one......do not want my legacy to be filled with lies. I, personally could not come to this site, surrounded by these wonderful loving women and spew garbage for MONTHS about a non existent boyfriend. AND, if for some strange reason this Brian person were to actually come to this website and find out he's having a relationship he knew nothing about, not to mention that he
apparently spent time in jail..... I'd imagine I'd be pretty pissed.
So, that is the reason I reacted the way I did. That is the reason I felt betrayed and hurt. That is the reason I went back and posted every single lie. It wasn't just one..... it was one after the other, over and over lying and making us look like fools.
For that reason, and maybe I might appear as heartless, but I hope she leaves and doesn't come back. If she were to stay, I would never trust her again. If she feels completely humiliated, I think she should. If she feels embarassed, she should. What did she expect us to do when all her lies hit us in the face? Rejoice? Praise her for deceiving us for months and months? Give her a big
for making us look like fools?
I don't think so.
I'm sorry to all of you and I hope none of you feel hard towards me for the honest words I've spoken here, but that's the way I've always been and the way I will always be......HONEST. You guys are my #1 priority and I do truly love you all and my words are out of anger not only because I've been duped but because we ALL have been.
Having said that..... I'll say no more. I just wanted to let you see my side of the story and why I feel the way I do.