Starting over & looking for an accountability partner.

  • Hi - I am new here and starting yet another weight loss journey. I have been reading through this group and relate so much to many of you.

    Loss - regain more. Loss - regain more. Rinse and repeat.

    I am feeling so trapped in my body and so unhealthy. Exercise is so incredibly painful due to how large my boobs are and how they pull on my back.

    I am mortified to go to the gym, but I love swimming, and it's good for my back, but I haven't been able to force myself to go to the gym. The last time I went swimming, a woman called me a disgusting, fat b*tch when I went to share her lane. I know I shouldn't let people control my behavior, but it really hurt my feelings and I feel so self-conscious.

    I would love to find an accountability partner. I know how to eat to lose weight. I actually really enjoy healthy food - I just need to reign in the portions and not give in to junk food temptation. I had one HUGE binge that lasted 3 days this weekend and I feel so out of control and unable to live the life that I so desperately want.

    I'm afraid I'm going to die if I don't get myself on the right track.
  • Hello! I'm Ruby

    First I am so sorry that happened to you. I'm not sure what I would do if someone said that to me so I can understand your leeriness of trying to go again. Is there another gym you can go to? I know its hard to find one with a pool.

    I would love to be one of your partners if you will have me! I'm doing calorie counting and intermediate fasting. What kind of plan are you on?
  • Hi Ruby,

    Thanks for responding! I am locked into that gym with a membership, and they have a pool and hot tub, so I need to suck it up and go back. Claim my space.

    Right now I'm just doing calorie counting and attempting to incorporate some exercise into my day. I am in a lot of pain due to my weight and it's really hard to get started.. I'd love to be accountability partners... I will private message you if that's ok?
  • I am in the same boat. Daily activities are painful to complete and so I give up and go to bed. Which means I am often behind on household things I need to get done.