Don't get me wrong, last year was the hardest I've worked at something in a long, LONG time. It was long and stressful, and I cried multiple times a week, and at the end, every day. I'm so much happier now that it's over...but I'm also fatter, and pudgier, and just generally squishier. I try so hard to keep my head high, to be positive and happy...but it's hard sometimes. Especially when I wear a shirt around the house that's form fitting and shows off all the less-than-flattering curves around my midsection. It was easy to hide everything in the baggy scrubs I wore everyday, but it's so much harder now that I'm wearing real clothes more often. I can't keep denying how much it drags at my self-esteem.
So, here I am! Posting in multiple forums because I like the company and support, and I'm a social person that likes to talk to people often (especially those that know the struggle!). I've lost a pound so far. It's not much, but it's a start.


