I wish I could remember which thread I originally posted under several months ago, so I could thank the wonderful people who replied to my cry for help. I'm sure you all remember the moment when you saw yourself in a photo for the first time in months- or years in my case- and said, "oh my god, WHO is THAT?" Of course, I said this to myself as tears and feelings of shame and disbelief took over me. I posted a new thread, asking- no, BEGGING- for someone to give me a reason to lift myself out of my new depression and do something about it. This was probably in October or November of last year. Naturally, I was told (because it's true- I know that now) that when I was ready, I'd do something about it- and that hitting a "rock-bottom" place like I had was the first step to turning my life around. Between posts and emails, I received nearly 60 replies. I didn't do anything about it for several months. In January, I moved to another state to begin a new job- and for some reason, as soon as I got here, I started doing something about it. It wasn't a huge deal- I just did it. I began exercising a little here and there, and began eating healthier- and a few weeks ago, joined Weight Watchers with a few women from my office. So far, I've lost close to 20 lbs., and even though the it's barely noticeable on my 265 lb- excuse me, *247* pound !!!-body, it feels so good to have gained that kind of control. Thank you.

Good for you! Congrats on getting control. If you think people don't notice the weight, you're wrong. People will notice the subtle changes. Keep up the good work. Be sure to treat yourself to something nice at every interval.

Abby

It's such a good feeling....getting that control back!!! Congrats on the weight loss...I bet you can already notice how much better you feel.