I have been a fat adult for 20 years now. I wasn't a fat child, I wasn't fat in my 20s, but I've been severely overweight and obese since 30. My health has been great, and my blood pressure and cholesterol have been very good. But, I started to feel that change.
For some background:
At around 40 I lost 80 pounds and felt great. Somehow most of the weight slipped back on, and I lost it again. I did Jenny Craig, and as long as I was "eating out of the box" I was fine. I also worked out like a dog. My usual workouts were about 5 times per week and about 2 hours long. I did an hour on the elliptical, followed by an hour of weights. I was a stay at home mom, so I had the time to spend at the gym. Then I decided to go back to school and complete the Bachelors degree I never completed. At first I continued to make time for the gym. Then one day I skipped the gym, that turned into a week. At that point, I was like a sneaky little child, I remember thinking, ha ha, I skipped the gym all week. Bad move in retrospect. That week turned into a month, then a year, then several years. By the time I graduated two years later, I was a fat pig again. I looked like a round blue glob in my cap and gown. Because I was ashamed of how I looked, I have no pictures to commemorate the achievement I am so very proud of. I have few photos of me and my kids while they were growing up.
Spring forward to the current time.
I work as an Accountant, an I basically sit at a desk all day. I still don't work out. I've known for some time that things have to change, but I am the type who has to mentally prepare myself for the challenge and change. We love Disney World, and we have spent many fall breaks there while the kids have been growing up. This past year, my husband, youngest son, and I went to Disney World again. I knew it was going to be hard this time. I was about 20 pounds heavier than ever before, and my body had begun to hurt. I was having serious muscle spasms doing the simplest things. I was having trouble doing some of life's daily routines. I knew something needed to change. One night at the Magic Kingdom, my body hurt so bad, and I needed to buy some sock to put on since I had not worn any that day. I was so sore and out of shape, my 17 year old son had to put the socks on for me. Talk about embarrassing. But, the most embarrassing moment came when I tried to ride the Harry Potter Forbidden Journey ride at Universal. The workers couldn't get the bar locked into position the way they wanted, and I had to get off. I could have died right there and then. I was mortified. They kept apologizing and asking me if I wanted to try again. Imagine the horror. They were apologizing to me for being too fat to ride the ride. My family didn't say a word about it when they got off the ride, but I was so embarrassed.
That was my moment when I knew I had to do something about my weight for good. It took me two months to mentally prepare. Silly me also had concerns about starting a diet at New Years, as I didn't want to appear to be one of those people who start because of a resolution and quietly failed within two months. I also didn't tell anyone but my immediate family that I was attempting to loose weight. Part of me kept that to myself because I didn't want to appear to be on the resolution bandwagon, and I didn't want to tell anyone in case I fail.
It's been nearly 2 months, I feel great. I'm down 18 pounds, and the muscle spasms have stopped. I feel better, and my pants are much looser. No one has noticed, but I'm okay with that. I figure in 20 more pounds it will definitely be obvious, and I'm okay if no one mentions it. I haven't even told my mother because I don't want the constant, "how is you diet going"? She once or twice told me, "you have such a pretty face if you could just loose the weight". Gee thanks mom, especially since I look just like you. Ha Ha.
I'm doing this for my health, but looking better definitely is a great side benefit. I'm looking forward to tearing up Disney World this October.
What your story?



) Fast forward to *that moment*, I had regained about 15-17lbs.
I wasn't happy with any aspect of this regain. I felt physically uncomfortable in my body, dressing myself was developing into a challenge, and things I had come to enjoy, like crossing my legs, were starting to become less comfortable. I'd begun to feel concerned I would continue to regain and all of my hard work, plus the perks I had gained from weight loss, would be lost! I had far surpassed my "time to do something about this" re-gain limit. I wasn't happy, and I knew I wouldn't be at that weight or any higher weight. I also knew getting back to where I had started would take that much more time and result in even greater frustration with myself if I continued to re-gain. If I didn't nip it in the bud then, I would, eventually, find myself having to lose these same pounds but from an even higher starting weight while feeling even more miserable. I spent most of my life living that way and I didn't want to return to that place. The sooner I started, the less weight I would have to lose, and the easier it would be. So I put myself in "weight loss mode". I'm deeply thankful I've been able to get/stay on course so far. In a few weeks, I should be out of the danger zone, and still losing the re-gain but from a more comfortable and reassuring place.
I attribute a lot of getting back on course to this community. I don't know if I could do this on my own, and I sure am glad I don't have to test that theory. 