And apparently I didnt realize it until now.
Usually hubby and I work day shift, but for today he's working 4 till midnight. I worked my usual, plus a couple hours overtime because no one at home for supper. Then something weird happened.
On the way home, I found myself planning all sorts of indulgent and totally not health friendly things to eat. Cream soups, baked brie and the like. Now, I've been working on healthier eating since October. If I gave in on any of those, not only would it be off plan, I'd be horribly ill at this point (my body does not have a happy relationship with high fat foods when I've been eating healthy for a while. It's actually a great motivator). I wasn't even craving the foods, I'd skipped that right into planning them, and driving to the grocery store just like...
Like every other time I had an evening without hubby around. It's been a few months since his work has swung his shift on us, but I realized every time he wasn't around for the entire evening, I'd eat all the stuff I'd be ashamed to have him see me eat. Not that he's a judgy person, I get that its my hang up, and it was for specific foods, I ate plenty of unhealthy things around him at other times. I found it neat and a little scary that nearly 3 months later, something so simple can come so close to triggering old habits. Especially since I didn't realize I did it in the first place!
Drove past the grocery store, came home and had the planned chicken breast with rice and veggies for supper. Tasted like victory.
