


... like last night i ate fried pickles
...but good news is when i eat an unhealthy meal my body craves veggies like woah! I jump right back on the next meal or the next day, is actually kind of easy, which gives me hope for maintaince but like i said IM NOT DONE YET.I also bought this Calvin Klein black dress for 120$ but i was inbetween sizes. The L was too tight but the XL was a tad too big for my bust and upper waist but fit me more like it should. (the straps look better when they arn't digging into my back and arm fat) so now my mind is being cruel and telling myself I cant shrink out of the dress just yet because I have an event coming up in June, and it was so expensive that I need to get lots of wears out of it! But then again I so desperatly want to grow out of it
What is wrong with me, how do I re motivate?! Summer is coming and I want to be at goal by at least september! I felt like the warmer it gets the easier it will be and the pounds will start flying. I made it thru the holidays and lost weight...now why can't I do this???
