This is my re-introduction. Hoping to find the support I need to finally get my head straight. I'm 35 yrs old. I have 4 teenage children and a husband who I love to death but is not that supportive. I have been overweight all of my life. I am a pushover and have 0% will power. I have always had the want to lose weight but never the motivation or courage to actual do something about it. I've made a few attempts but after a week or two, I failed miserably. I just don't know where to start. I don't own a scale but based on the last time I weighed myself I am probably close to 250 lbs and I am only 5'3".
More recently I have become scared, not only because of my weight but I am a smoker too. Another thing that I need desperately to quit but can't seem to. I get out of breath so quickly. Even just walking up the stairs. I was playing around with one of my sons yesterday and found myself gasping for air.
I am terrified of dying young and my kids being without a mother.
I would love to join a plan but financially it is not possible.
I know all of my struggles are mind over matter and I have a lot of excuses but how do I convince my mind to move forward????
