So here's a little bit about me and hopefully my quest to becoming healthier and happier~
I'm 25 years old and have worked the past three years at a physically demanding job at a liquor store, constantly on my feet and lifting heavy cases. I never really worked out because I was exhausted at the end of the day and thought my job also included a workout. This seemed like it worked... until May last year.
I was promoted to a higher-up position... in the office. Where I sit for about 8 1/2 hours a day in front of a computer from 9-5. You know, that whole deal. I've also been smoking about half a pack of day for two years. In the summertime I noticed a slow weight-gain and so I started to rollerblade after work for about a half hour. It was alright for awhile until the frigid midwest temps kicked in October. I'm 5'1'' and I weigh about 140 lbs currently, around 10-15 lb weight gain since last year.
My boyfriend also moved in with me as well, and with the holidays passed, I've been getting zero to no exercise. He's always moving and lifting since he's in the stock position at my work, but he's also 6'6'', 180 lbs, smokes, and eats like a human garbage disposal. He doesn't know how to cook, and eats like a freshman in college. We always have frozen pizzas, corndogs, almost anything that's easy to zap and eat because he's cooking-challenged. And most days I just end up eating what he eats because it "tastes so much better" and easier than the sensible food I should be eating. He's still slim but has definitely packed on some pounds since we started dating almost three years ago.
When I get home, it's cold, dark, and I'm tired. I also can't afford a gym membership. Every so often I get a spark of motivation and do a 15-20 minute intense cardio workout from an online video and I'll eat sensibly, but it won't last more than two days. We both want to cut down/quit smoking but eventually that doesn't last either. It's definitely affected me where I can't do intense cardio routines because I'm exhausted and wheezing about 10 minutes in. Having healthy lungs is definitely key to a healthy overall body, but I can't shake it. Some days I'll go to my parents place where I don't smoke, but instead I end up binge-eating to replace that fixation.
The combination of work, boyfriend's habits, smoking, and my lifestyle end up giving me anxiety, and I always think "Okay, starting tomorrow..." but it never happens. I'm not sure if I'm looking for surefire "answers" but just words of encouragement, advice and support would be wonderful.