*hugs*
I hear ya!
Ok my brutal honest advice time.
You need to just put your mind to it and do it. You know how you already did it. Your motivation is within you!
There are always going to be Plans and parties. Have a drink and then water, put a serving of chips on the plate and walk away from the bowl.
You got this! 30lbs is doable by February, but it's not going to do it by itself!
Totally have this.
