So here I am again, typical pattern; I have tracked for days and followed my plan. I have felt good and I have continued running most mornings.

So why did I have a craving for unhealthy crap today? Why did I go out after work and buy fish and chips and deep fried shrimp? Why did I eat enough protions for four people?

Why, when I know that once I'm done eating, I'm going to feel awful; bloated and sick, with a massive headache; tired and lazy??

I know what's going to happen, so why do I do it?? How do I break this pattern that keeps dragging me down??

I've been there many times. All I can say is you are not alone!

I was there two weeks ago! It sucks. I can tell you that I feel soooo much better now that I'm back on point. I'm sure it's going to happen again. We just have to learn how to get through it. I wish I had the answer! I weigh everyday. It keeps me accountable. My son also gives me a kick in the a$$ if I need it. You just have to think ' is it really worth it?' Sometimes it totally is lol
This is hard man! I want to eat my house right now. Instead I'm laying down, on here. We can do this, beer and all

We've ALL been there. Why? I still don't understand it myself, so I'll just say...
Keep standing up when you fall. Don't give up on yourself. One of my favorite songs, one I like to listen to when I run, is called Inhale Deep...it always makes me want to dust of my mistakes and keep trying. Hope you are feeling stronger.

"Inhale Deep"

We all know life can get hectic
But if you live in the second,
You exist in the present
And that's how you stay connected
Go through good times and hardships
And if you learn to accept it
And know that every struggle in life,
Is there to teach you a lesson
It's times like this that make you
It's always the darkest part of the night, right before the sun has it's break through
The spirits there to knock you down,
But if you make that the end
You will never know the beauty
Of being able to stand up again
And face it, with patience,
The Pace set is dealing
With judgements and hatred,
Depressed hopeless feelings
But I've been told,
You only create your own ceilings
Life is limitless,
And knowing this is what the spirit is

That's why I try to inhale deep, so I can find peace, in essence just find me

Nice song.

I agree with the rest of the gang, been there too, many times. I look on my relationship with food, crap food, as being like an alcoholic – I friggin LOVE food!!!...and it’s why I’m such a fat ***!...and I have spent most of my life, as far back as I can recall struggling with food. Like an alcoholic, I can never relax and think it’s okay to just let it all go…because then I know it, I’m off on a pattern again. Sometimes I snap myself out of it really quick, sometimes it takes months. BUT, I’ve realized this addiction/dependency type relationship…that’s my new key, and I won’t let food control me anymore…I control it, and it feels pretty good!!

Stick with it girl, you'll find the road back on track. You are here, and that is an awesome start!

Thanks!! It's nice to know I'm not alone. Today is a new day...